23/10/2021
5 years...
As I sit here today, I reflect on my journey as it has been for the past five years. Five years ago I was diagnosed with a fairly progressed stage Four cancer. It was during the birth of my second bub Jai and as you can imagine, our lives were very quickly turned upside down.
I remember those feelings so well. These feelings remain just as strong, raw and emotional today. The shear fear and desperation to do whatever it takes to be here. To get my health back in order to be here and alive with my babies, my husband and my family. My journey has been just that.
I really find it hard to celebrate the wins. Particularly when I know there are so many people deeply affected by cancer in the world. I know there are many people who would give anything to remain on earth and continue their own journey. My results are always a reminder of this. BUT today, five years on, I celebrate the results of a scan. CLEAR!!!!
I struggle more than ever to celebrate this win as we have recently lost one of our best friends. Carly was a huge part of my journey. She walked beside me throughout the years and we shared many ups and many downs together. Always having her there to laugh and cry with, to celebrate OUR wins and to live every day to its fullest. My journey was always to include Carly. The simple fact she is no longer here to share these moments with absolutely breaks me. I know Carly always said it was important to celebrate every single win we had. Carly I do this in your honour. Although your not here in person with me, I celebrate with you in my heart. Every single win I have will include you Carly and I will continue to live on with you a part of my journey. This will never change.
The current medical statistics for stage Four bowel cancer survival rates, after five years are approximately 15%.
From the get go, I knew I would never be in that statistic and that I would always remain in the 15%. This is one thing that I have never doubted, ever.
Cancer for me was never a death sentence, nor a fight or a battle. Sure, it's certainly not come without extreme pain, hardship and emotional and physical trauma. However, it has also come with so many blessings. It's allowed me to find the gratitude in every part of my life.
I won't sit here and say the journey has been easy....it's been far from that. However, five years on, a clear scan... what a time to be INCREDIBLY grateful. I am so proud of how far I've come. How much I have achieved, together with my family and the love and support of my parents, friends and incredible husband. Just look at what WE have achieved. There really are no limits other than the ones we set ourselves. 💕
I have always said where there is hope, there is health! The tiniest bit of hope allows the body to believe everything is possible.
Am I grateful for every part of my experience. Has it been tough? Absolutely! Am I living my best most , happiest and grateful life?? .ABSOLUTELY!
Cancer isn't a death sentence, it's a chance to heal what needs healing within our body. Radical change, radical results. DIS-EASE... if your body can create it, with the right environment it can heal it too.
One of my biggest goals in the past five years, was to spread awareness and hope. To show others, not only going through the cancer journey, but also any struggle in life that EVERYTHING is achievable.
So today, for yourself, celebrate YOUR WINS. Be grateful for your health, your life and the chance to create memories and experiences here on this wonderful earth.
We a product of our thoughts.
I'm going to continue to do whatever it takes to be here and can only hope I can inspire others to do the same 💖
Thank you to my incredible husband Mike. Without your endless love, commitment, support and for always believing in me no matter what, I quite simply wouldn't be here today without you. To my two babies Tay and Jai. Thankyou for teaching me how to love purely and unconditionally and for continuing to give me the drive I need every day. To my mum and family, without you we quite simply would have fallen apart. Your love and support has never gone unnoticed and thank you for being our rock when we needed you the most. To my friends, thank you for never giving up on me, for the laughs, fun times and shoulders to cry on. I love you guys... Kimmy ###