08/03/2022
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A doctor once said to me I was complaining of so many different things that if I was a dog, theyād put me down. I was 18 years old.
My right leg rotates inwards 40 degrees. After a few failed surgeries on my knees a surgeon put me in traction and said to me he was doing it just to prove that it wouldnāt help, and that the rotation was irrelevant. I was 15. I was made to feel stupid and ashamed.
Another doctor told me that the reason I struggled for breath growing up was because I was over thinking breathing and was anxious. Apparently my very marked dent in my chest, a known issue in connective tissue conditions, was irrelevant.
Another doctor told me after I had been put in a cast for recurrent fractures on both my wrists that I was just unlucky, and when he finally realised that it was because all the tissues around my bones were fragile, rather than the bones themselves, he did not think to investigate why this could happen to a āseemingly healthyā teenager.
When my POTS symptoms first occurred I was in hospital after a liver infection. Apparently the cause of heart rate shooting up and my blood pressure crashing every time I stood up, was because I was anxious about going home.
I could go on & on. I will never take for granted how privileged I am now to have access to the latest information & the worlds leading experts on EDS after spending years in the wilderness. But I know that so many of you are still battling through alone. Itās what drives me & pushes me to keep doing more so we do not have to listen to these ridiculous narratives any more.
There may be some who are anxious, but who wouldnāt be after years of being bounced from doctor to doctor being disbelieved & made to feel stupid.
There may be some who are depressed, but who wouldnāt be after facing a condition with no approved therapeutics or a cure?
For so many the physical causes the psychological, not the other way round.
We are working so hard every day to make things different, to improve diagnosis and to fight for management and care.
Iām sorry for all of you still battling to be believed and validated. All I can say is I see you, I believe you, and itās not in your head. ā¤ļø