18/06/2023
Hi everyone ๐
I guess today might be a good time to talk about how or why I became involved in Meditation and what it has done for me over the years. Which in part reveals in some way the type of person I wish to become.
In the 80's when I was a teenager my mother bought a constant supply of self development or new age books they were called back then. I ended up reading most of these. My mum's sister was highly regarded in her family as being the black sheep of the family as she did things her way, and didn't buy into the family ethos as convincingly as everyone else. ๐๐
Her knowledge of the bible when she was young was so poignant that the families local pastor insisted that she attend a Minister's College to become a Deaconess which back then in the 60's was the term for a female minister. This at a time when the only expectation on her was to get married and have children. Her parents were reluctant, but the pastor who they well regarded finally convinced them.
My aunt continued to study the bible well after her course concluded and would often be up late at night pondering the meaning of what was written within the bible, which then eventually led her to a Course In Miracles. She then helped her local pastor at the time who was forward thinking to teach a Course in Miracles to certain interested people within their congregation.
My aunt within her late night contemplations found enlightenment, which really just means she was able to reach beyond thought, to the layers of being which exist beyond these. She had many wonderful and perplexing experiences. She often discussed these with me as we drew closer over time.
It was within the bubble of her scope which I discovered my own love for not so much a disciplined meditation routine, but a heartfelt desire to dive within myself. Going within, through the dimensions of my own thought field, through the clouds of my emotional reactions and responses, hurts, traumas and wounds, to the ecstatic brilliant light which always always exists on the other side.
This work, this desire to go within influenced my choices within my life, and I gave up opportunities, jobs, career progression, family constraints in a bid to continue with this journey. A journey which enlivened me, sustained & nourished me in ways I did not know at first was possible.
This is what has brought me to where I am today and made me the person I am, a small reflection of the greatness, the beauty, the open but direct force which was my aunt.
Thank you for taking the time to read, not it's time to share yours โจ
-Narelle ๐