20/05/2026
TW: terminal illness & grief 🤍
I’m going into hospital on Monday for a least a week. I wasn’t going to tell anyone but in case you try contact me during that time & I don’t respond- I’m not ignoring!
I don’t speak alot on my health. I’m here for you & want to keep it that way, but I’m being (not so gently) pushed to be vulnerable. I know when we are vulnerable, when we own our own path fully, it inevitably supports other people.
Many of my organs don’t really jive with functioning properly. They get stubborn & just do their own thing which has previously led to starting a bone marrow transplant, chemo, lots of surgeries etc. I also have a spine that’s fusing & making its own rules. My body loves to pick up an infection & run with it too. Obvs, none of this is ideal but I’ve got an incredible team & amazing treatment so I can live beautifully (with intermittent hospital trips to keep things spicy).
As I started writing this, I began channeling a message regarding life, death, illness & grief & I’ll share here as someone needs it:
Each moment here, in this physical body holds meaning.
It may not seem this way.
Watching TV holds meaning? Washing clothes holds meaning? Yes.
In the mundane moments are the opportunities for peace, for reflection & for deeper understanding of your soul purpose & callings.
Your body will rise & fall.
There will be times of abundant energy & times where you feel so fatigued that life feels unfair & unfulfilling.
Please do not fight against these feelings any more.
Sit with them.
Acknowledge their truth.
This human existence is as times so challenging & denying this leads to dissonance & disputes within your mind.
Your body, this avatar you have carefully chosen, may not look or feel or behave as you think it “should”.
Know that you chose it for a reason.
Reassure yourself that despite these challenges, this body has gotten you to incredible places & will continue to do so.
You are not broken. Please love your mind & body as they are. When it is time to pass, you leave a legacy.
Not because you tried, not from ego, but because your challenging journey inspired others & gave them hope.
