03/02/2026
Someone asked me yesterday if I had shut down my clinic, as they miss my words on here. 🥹 I promise, me and the clinic are alive and well, I am just much more active on Instagram these days 🪻🌸
Here is a sentiment from there today 💓
I just walked along a street near my home, chatting to a patient on the phone who is about to embark on a pretty big health and fertility journey 🌸
‘I am really excited, but I am also feeling very mixed. It definitely isn’t just this high and happy feeling. I am also scared, and I’ve had moments of grief, confusion, spaces where I know I ‘should’ be feeling this intense joy, and I do, but it comes with other things too, like fear and sadness and even questioning.
It’s not bloody Instagram in real life is it’ 😂 she said, and we had a bit of a giggle at that one.
Because it really isn’t like Instagram, is it?
Anything we navigate. It is always pretty mixed isn’t it?! 🌸 and that word ‘should’ can make anything we feel that seems to deviate from what we think we should, feel wrong.
Yesterday I turned 35, and lately, I have felt like I am within one of my most beautiful seasons, yet it has been mixed. I’ve had to navigate fear, grief, triggers, old stories and beliefs and a hell of a lot of loss and letting go to be here. Those are the parts we don’t see on Instagram, hey.
This is why women sit opposite me in clinic with a confirmed positive pregnancy, feeling shame for it feeling beautiful and exciting and yet also mixed.
It is why women reach a place with their health and weight, and wonder where the euphoria and complete happiness and self acceptance is. Why aren’t I simply feeling this Elle?
Because every season, will always feel mixed 🌸
There is no place to reach in love, and health and weight and fertility and all of your wildest dreams coming true, where it will ever just feel like one thing.
It is always going to feel human.
and this little platform will never ever tell or show the whole story.
So before we buy into the bu****it that other women don’t feel like a mixed bag of many emotions within their seasons, they do. We all do. Even our most beautiful ones.
Whatever we feel, is always ok. And your truth? Always welcome here 🌸🪻💗 x