25/10/2023
I’ve had to learn to be a lover again, a wife. I’ve had to learn to find and integrate all the other archetypes. Lover, sourcerres, warrioress, but always at the forefront MOTHER. Sense Delilah was born I’ve had laser vision on her. I’ve had to give myself time for all the other parts of me to come back and integrate into life. Honestly at the beginning I didn’t know how to be a daughter, a sister, a friend. But a lover is one I was very resistant to. Don’t get me wrong I love my husband but I needed to learn to accept this new version of me, no longer maiden and free. But now grounded in my womenhood, responsible, stronger than ever before and with more passion than ever before. My spirit has been slowly but surely coming back into my body sense the four month mark. They say your body opens and your spirit leaves this realm to fetch your baby and birth them into this world, and boy is that true. I traveled different realms in my birth and post partum. Accepted truths in those few days that I never imagined would come so soon. And now 8 months later, and very close to getting my first bleed I feel more at home in my body. TIME, the most expensive currency, something I was inpatient with and wasn’t giving myself. Post partum WE MUST, give ourselves time to integrate ALL of the different parts of ourselves. The time will come, but whatever stage you’re in, ITS OK to be just mother as long as you are aware of where you’re at, the rest will follow and land 🙌 I’m now working on being a LOVER as I aim to give my daughter an embodied example of what is a healthy loving relationship is, as I know that a healthy marriage and devoted parents is the best gift I can give her ❤️🩸☀️
