05/12/2025
Sad gal Successful Christmas 🎄
This week something dropped in for me about the duality of life and business, of joy and sadness, of growth and despair. (I’m so fu***ng existential you guys have no idea lol)
You know when they talk about having it all, yeah this week I felt that to my core.
We are so obsessed with the illusion of perfection, the illusion that we are these bright and shiny girl bosses: not too perfect, not too busy, living just right, working just enough but definitely always high vibes and having so much fun. WOO!
This is what we think “having it all is”. Performative bu****it. (And to be fair sometimes we are, right? Actually having fun)
But this week with a visit home and family s**t hitting the fan, I felt sad, really fu***ng sad.
But my business grew, my spaces filled and I grew in ways that felt really fulfilling. (Actually like shocking tbh)
And in that moment it felt like I’m not allowed to have this if I’m sad, if I’m low, if I’m human and then it clicked.
This is it. The proverbial “having it all”.
It’s in the name isn’t it? It doesnt say “all of the bright and shiny s**t” it says “all”, all the beautiful, horrible, wonderful, awful fun human experience that is living.
This feels like a grim message to be putting out at Christmas, even my own ego tells me to take a chill pill and drink some egg nog but I also know that this s**t, sadness, is so fu***ng real…
That a lot of us, most of us, have traversed mountains of grief this year, that we have navigated through despair and battled chronic sadness whilst building wealth, impact, businesses, really dope ass s**t and felt somehow mismatched to it because we weren’t smiling the entire time.
And I guess I’m just here to say that yeah, you get to do that, you get to have it all and sometimes having it all is so bright and shiny and golden and sometimes it is sad and weird and awkward but this is it, are you going to be mad at yourself because you aren’t the picture perfect image of “Success” or are you going to ride your wave and enjoy this big, deep, weird life as much as you can?
Love you! (S/O my daddy issues girlys, holidays can be weird for us)
