06/01/2026
Tonight, I sat in meditation with my little pot plant & surrendered into something profound: the deep grief of my life.
The grief I’ve held across all versions of me, those souls who passed away, to pets who left my life, those moments where it felt like the world was against me & to the pain when change is eminent.
My soul then whispered grief is the doorway to feeling all that was important in your life.
This is what I saw in my meditation…
A pink & white lotus appeared at my heart’s centre, spinning through my being.
Another bloomed in my womb, rooting toward the earth.
A third crowned my head, pouring liquid gold through every chakra receiving light, repairing what needed healing. Tears flowed down my face as I felt my body expanding and contracting.
Then I saw my path. My son’s soul took my left hand and said, “I’m proud of you, Amma.”
The centre pillar of my body opened, beaming white light everywhere. To my home. To myself. To all versions of me across timelines and dimensions. I held every fragment of grief, my inner child & versions of me at 7, 14, 30, 33, 35, 41.
I saw past lives where I died alone, abandoned, unseen, unheard. Consumed with grief of loneliness.
I felt it all.
So I chose to enter their hearts. All hearts of me.
I became their heart. My light, my love, the presence of the mother rippled into every version of myself.
In that moment, I felt free.
I whispered: You’re not abandoned my loves, I hold you all. I am safe. I am present. I am love. I am light, I am held. I am one with all of you.
We don’t need to be scared anymore. We can open even more fully through our grief even more than before. As the grief washed through my heart.
A column of white light exploded through my being, beaming out to all portals and the collective. Vibrating this pillar of light.
I dropped into deep gratitude for this moment experienced in the remembrance of who I am. In this expanded state I sent this light to all of you who are grieving, sad, feel lost, need love, or need to remember how special your light is to this world.
And so it is!
You’re loved & you’re felt. I kiss your hearts & bless you now. ❤️