28/07/2024
Take a little quiet moment and have a read 🌸
I owe myself an apology.
For all the times I promised to forgive myself, only to bring it up again later.
For clipping the wings of my own dreams before they even had a chance to take flight. For thinking so little of myself
at the very moments I should have been standing up for myself.
For the lies I swallowed
while starving for truth.
For believing that all the glass
I walked on as a child
was ever my fault.
For withholding from myself the same grace
and second chances
I so freely give others.
For allowing the world to convince me that my heart was both too much and not enough.
For all the days wasted pretending to be someone I hoped you would accept.
For not living my life more on my own terms, simply because I was afraid of making a mistake.
For punishing myself for far too long.
For believing love was bloody and painful,
and that I didn’t deserve better.
For every time I looked in the mirror
and hated who I saw.
I could sit here listing every reason and way I was wronged by others, but maybe more than anything, I owe myself an apology for not valuing this one, beautifully precious life of mine enough to know I’m worthy of greatness, the very best of everything.
And for that,
I am sorry.
- J. Raymond
