03/11/2021
How could we unconsciously falsely a non-attatchment discipline?
I realized that I lived in a trap of twisting the meaning of things, and devaluing different aspects of life so I can detach from them and survive!
It is hard to love someone/something and not being attached! It's hurts when I think about losing that person/thing I love. I am sure it's the same for all of us!
We all have experienced losing a loved one! Even that moment of losing my mommy when I was one when she left me by myself for half an hour to grab my little newborn sister to breastfeed her!
That was one of the first times in my life I experienced a lose!
For a one year old, 30 minutes relatively is equal to almost 50 hours of a 40 year old.
For a 1 year old, her world revolves around her mom.
50 hours of not having of what your world revolves around at age of 40! Without any information or understanding of what's going on. This may sound trivial when you look at it from lense of an adult, but from the eyes of an infant, it's catastrophic!
We get traumatized by all of these catastrophic loses in our childhood, and during infancy. We just need to acknowledge it first. When it's acknowledged then we can move on to heal those wounds. But a trap that we stuck in as adults - me included- is that our minds find a way to balance out to protect ourselves so we survive.
That trap is to smartly change and twist the meaning of things to trivialize and devalue them unconsciously, to be able to forget that we are attached to them - this could be also right about our ideas too!
Or in some cases unconsciously fooling ourselves that this thing/person/idea is not that worthy to me, because we are scared of losing it- it hurts losing something I love! So, we need a protection strategy!
Our mind set up that strategy; devalue it, it loses its worth, hence I won't be attached to it and I won't hurt if it's gone!
There is always one thing, or many that we have chosen this strategy unconsciously towards it. Some examples could be our relationships, our body, our health, money, job, reputation, our ideas, and on top of the list: Life - we are scared of losing it!
What are your ones?
To be continued....
