19/10/2020
I love how photos not only capture a moment in time but they can also bring back the emotions and feeling we felt in that moment.
I absoltuly love this image but I have to be honest I was a nervous wreck. This was one of the images captured at my first and only maternity shoot with my last baby! I was 30 weeks pregnant and on bed rest shhhhh we didn't tell the doctors I went!
I was at risk of having another pre-term baby and so we decided to pull the maternity shoot 6 weeks forward so I was only 30 weeks in these images. I really wanted to capture the pregnancy glow and the elation I felt knowing I was about to bring a beautiful baby girl into the world! (I have 6 brothers and had 2 boys already).
I was on bed rest from 23 weeks which was so hard for me as I was not one to sit around and watch everyone else do everything but I knew that being bed bound would save my baby's life!
The doctors expected her to be born between 26 to 29 weeks given my complications but together we made it to 30 weeks (which you can see how happy I was to make it that far in the photos) then we made it to 32 weeks and anyone who has ever been through this knows EVERYDAY their in that womb increases their survival rate!
Then 33 weeks came and I could finally breathe a sigh of relief because Jye was born at 33 weeks and I knew what to expect. Then we reached 36, then 37, then 39.... then 41 weeks!!!!!
The doctors were shocked when I waddled in at nearly 42 weeks begging to be induced!!!
I know sometimes it's hard not to worry about the future but I do know this often what we worry about never actually finds its way into our reality. Imagine how much energy your wasting on worrying? Is it time we all tried to worry a little less and use that energy for something greater?
