17/02/2025
My first yoni massage was in 2016 when I was living in Thailand.
Honestly, I never had huge problems having or***ms. So I didn't know what to expect from the session.
Yet, I went.
A mattress on the floor of this Israeli masseuse's living room, we chatted about the massage and started.
The massage itself was nice, but nothing amazing, nothing โI am the Universeโ type of thing. But this happened:
She was touching me. I was getting really close to climaxing.
Closer and closer.
Closer and closer.
Almost picking.
And then... she started to slow down her movements until stopping it. Carefully pulled her fingers out of my yoni, and covered me.
She left the room and let me there, integrating.
In my mind, I was:
โWait, what?! I was SO close to the climax! Why did she stop?
Why didn't she wait for me to climax? It was so close!โ
As I stayed there, lying down โ โkindaโ frustrated โ I started feeling these oh.gasmic sensations that I already knew.
Then I realized: actually, I did have an oh.gasm! I just couldn't feel it.
HOW COULD I NOT FEEL THAT I HAD AN OH.GASM???
I was shocked.
As I delved deeper into Ta**ra, knowing more about my body, practicing yoga and meditation, and working with energy, I concluded two things about that session:
1. I was so unaware of myself, so disconnected from my energy, body, and sensations that, yes, I could not feel that oh.gasm.
2. I also learned that, many times, I have to bring my energy back down to my yoni. Several times the energy would flow upwards my body and dissipate.
Nowadays, I still have to bring my energy down sometimes. But now I feel it, now I am aware of it.
ยป Did you notice that she could feel it, but I didn't?
It is not other people's job to know our pleasure and bodies, to feel what we don't feel. It's our job, and as we claim our seg...gsual power, we claim ourselves.
Are you in the same place that I was? I invite you to reconnect with your body, with your juiciness, and be present moment to moment, you can even stop to feel it.
I would love to hear how to feel as you read about my first experience ;)