Re-Embering

07/12/2025

An event occurs that doesn't feel right (Stage 1). When fight/flight ends, we try to understand what happened (Stage 2). In Stage 3, our bodies crash from energy depletion. The nervous system is exhausted and we need rest. Next we try to avoid the pain we feel (Stage 4). We want to numb-out or escape. Our bodies are also trying to restore energy (crave sugar). Stage 5 is allowing the true emotions to be felt. "I am sad." "I am angry". Stage 6 asks us to integrate. How do we make peace with our emotions (sadness, anger, etc) and accept the new lessons presented?

Tune into yourself.
Tune into your body.

Stage 1: The Shock (The Event)
Stage 2: The Aftershock (Trying to Understand)
Stage 3: The Crash (Energy Depletion)
Stage 4: The Craving (Numbing/Escaping Feelings)
Stage 5: The Meeting (Feeling/Accepting our Truth)
Stage 6: Integration/Return to Self (Growth)

ELEMENTAL - 33/month.
Come as you are.
We'll meet you there.

07/12/2025

An event occurs that doesn't feel right (Stage 1). When fight/flight ends, we try to understand what happened (Stage 2). In Stage 3, our bodies crash from energy depletion. The nervous system is exhausted and we need rest. Next we try to avoid the pain we feel (Stage 4). We want to numb-out or escape. Our bodies are also trying to restore energy (crave sugar). Stage 5 is allowing the true emotions to be felt. "I am sad." "I am angry". Stage 6 asks us to integrate. How do we make peace with our emotions (sadness, anger, etc) and accept the new lessons presented?

Tune into yourself.
Tune into your body.

Stage 1: The Shock (The Event)
Stage 2: The Aftershock (Trying to Understand)
Stage 3: The Crash (Energy Depletion)
Stage 4: The Craving (Numbing/Escaping Feelings)
Stage 5: The Meeting (Feeling/Accepting our Truth)
Stage 6: Integration/Return to Self (Growth)

ELEMENTAL - 33/month.
Come as you are.
We'll meet you there.

07/07/2025

ELEMENTAL - $33/month.
Come as you are.
We'll meet you there.

07/03/2025

07/03/2025

I didn’t do anything wrong.
I changed my mind.
And someone else didn’t like it.

But that’s not the same as betrayal.
That’s not the same as harm.
That’s just life — moving, shifting, reorienting.

For most of my life, I felt like I wasn’t allowed to pivot.
Because if I dared to change,
I’d be called disappointing. Difficult. Irresponsible.
And then I’d be punished — with guilt, withdrawal, blame, silence.

So I internalized it.
I began to believe I was the problem.
That someone else’s reaction meant I’d done something wrong.

But I see it now:

The reaction belongs to them.
The disappointment belongs to them.
The discomfort belongs to them.

And still — this isn’t a free pass to be careless or cruel.

I am responsible for:
• Communicating clearly
• Giving appropriate notice
• Considering the impact of my shift
• Being accountable for the ripple I create
• Owning the decisions I make — even when they’re hard to receive

But I am not responsible for:
• Managing someone else's emotional reaction
• Absorbing their projections
• Carrying blame for their unmet expectations
• Shrinking to make my choice more palatable
• Apologizing for being real

When someone gives you their truth, you don’t get to punish them for it.
You don’t make them feel small for being honest.

This is what I’m learning:

I’m not sorry for changing my mind.
I’m not sorry for being slow.
I’m not sorry for honouring what I now know is true.

I am responsible for how I show up in the shift —
for clarity, for care, for clean decisions.

But your poor reception of my honesty?
That’s not my burden to carry.

I’m responsible for being real.
You’re responsible for how you receive it.

That’s what makes relationship real.
That’s what makes growth possible.

Inside ELEMENTAL, we explore these nuances.
We bring real examples.
We pick life apart to understand our role, and the role of the other.
We look beneath the pattern — and rewrite it.
We don’t bypass.
We take responsibility.
We take control.
Together.

$33/month. Join when it feels right.
Message me for details or to register.

07/02/2025

Honouring myself doesn’t feel empowering.
Not yet.
Not always.

Sometimes it feels like guilt.
Like shame.
Like I’m being difficult. Disappointing. Inconvenient.

Especially when I change my mind.
Especially when I say no — after I already said yes.

Because I’m slow.
Not lazy-slow.
Body-slow.

It takes time for clarity to rise from my bones.
Time to separate truth from fear.
Time to know what is mine and what is just old survival.

And by the time I do know?
It’s often “too late.”
The plan is set.
The expectation is made.
The version of me that said yes is no longer here —
but she already committed on my behalf.

And so I’m left with a choice:
Please others, or honour the me I’m still learning to trust.

And here’s the hardest part:
Even when I choose rightly —
it still feels awful.
It still feels like I’ve done harm.
Because once upon a time, choosing myself was a danger.

This is the part of growth we need compassion for:
The guilt that follows sovereignty.
The ache of being misunderstood.
The loneliness of clarity.

I am responsible.
For the change in my heart.
For the impact I have on others.
For choosing what is right. In the moment.  In every moment.

I will keep choosing truth, as it arises.
Even if it’s inconvenient.
Even if I cry after.
Even if someone gets disappointed.

Someone’s going to be hurt, no matter what.
If I please another, I hurt myself.
If I please myself, I hurt another.
There is no win-win… yet.

So for today,
I keep listening.
I keep honouring my truth as it appears.
Because I matter too.

07/02/2025

When you first began to express, you did it freely.

No one had yet told you what was acceptable or not.
You were free.

But over time — interaction by interaction — you learned:
Speaking truthfully,
speaking with passion,
speaking to the wrong person
was dangerous. Threatening. Unwelcome.

Something about you made them upset.

So you believed: something must be wrong with me.

And they made sure you knew it.

You learned to fawn. Or freeze.
You became an expert at saying what they wanted to hear.
You silenced your truth. Your voice.
Yourself.
You disappeared.

For them.

Because you were damaged goods. You were bad.
That’s what they taught you.

So you learned to sabotage everything that could be good for you —
before someone else could take it,
destroy it,
or condemn you for it.

Best to stay small.
Very, very small.

But hear this:
It’s not your fault.

This is nervous system override.
This is emotional sabotage.
This is the shadow you feel — but haven’t yet named.

ELEMENTAL’s Water door is open.
The door to your past.
Your patterns.
Your pain.

There is nothing wrong with you.
There never was.
Who you are is exactly who you needed to become.

But today?
You see.
You choose.
You take back your power.

Step inside.
Rewrite.
Rewire.

With community.
With connection.
Together.