05/03/2023
*Long post alert!*
Recently I announced my pregnancy news to the world on my personal page and with that it became even more real. As I feel all the little kicks/movements and my belly grows, all the emotions of pure excitement and love grow, but with that also comes nervousness. I’m so ready to be a mom. I can’t say I know for sure what I’m doing because who really does, but the teacher in me can’t wait to watch my baby grow and show her the world. I also can’t wait for her to show me the world because really kids are one of our greatest teachers.
The only one real fear I’ve had is losing myself in the process. I’ve heard time and time again from others “just don’t lose yourself because you have kids”. However, I’ve seen so many moms and dads forget that they are their own person and what they’re passions are because they put everyone else’s needs ahead of theirs. The other day I had a little panic because I thought I was already losing myself, as I’ve taken a step back from really promoting my Reiki and craft businesses. I thought to myself, “if I’m losing myself already how will I find myself again when I’m busy with a child?” After a moment of spiraling, I took a deep breathe, gave myself some Reiki and reminded myself that I’m still here, I’m still me and that I’ve actually felt less stress since I’ve slowed down. I reminded myself that we aren’t meant to remain the same this whole life and that most of the time trying to make 2 businesses and a FT job work was actually not making me happy.
Maybe this is the change I need in order to see things from a different lens. I can still do the things I love, but maybe at a slower pace that doesn’t overwhelm me. Maybe this will open up paths to what I’m truly meant to be doing, as long as I still find light and passion in the things that I do. Success is different for everyone and maybe viewing life simply from the lens of a child is just what I need. I don’t know where my journey will take me, but I know I’m still on the right path.
If this resonates for you, let me know in the comments below. 👇
NRG 🌿