
08/18/2024
Definitely something like this.
How many ppl ask “ why do you need 5 horses ?”
I don’t need 5 horses. I don’t even “ want” 5 horses but they are here. And they came with their own way, their own agenda. And so, I receive them without the fear of the how or the why but in absolute trust that we are meant to journey through some beautiful mysteries and universal secrets.
How can I not trust?
What is it about horses exactly? It's this complicated, beguiling, difficult-to-leave-completely life that's impossible to explain to anyone who's on the outside looking in.
It's like there's something humans need to do with our souls, like we need to hang them or park them somewhere outside of ourselves in order to be able to see those parts of ourselves. Like a projection, that essential intertwining is necessary to feel like we belong. Like something is holding us to the world. Like part of us is braided through the life of another being who is larger and more elemental than us and that somehow tethers us here to these earthly forms. Is it the same with a mountain? Or a river, or a piece of ground?
It's not the same as human partnership or the way we entwine and emmesh with a lover. Maybe it's a piece of our belonging that we would have originally given to the earth, or God, or the communities of our original villages. And when that offering is lost from us, we wander, with that essential gifting lost from us too, waiting for a creaturly or earthly body to bind us in the reciprocity of being here.
Maybe it's a little like that.
What is it like for you?