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10/17/2024

Good day, friends.
this is a very long post with many spelling and grammar mistakes. and its all over the place but im typing in the manner that im thinking:thoughts coming and going in no discernable sequence or rhyme or reason. and it might p**s some people off, they arent named because i prefer to talk behind their back. and i dont want any legal troubles, lol
a stream of conscoiusness, if you will
anywho
I havent posted on my page for awhile, that doesnt mean that Ive stopped reading tarot or stopped continuing on my spiritual journey/enlightenment/awakening, whatever you want to call it, this deep change that forces me to be a better person everyday and makes me want to genuinely help others.... find peace, empowerment, joy,or live a life in gratitude and or experience abundance.
Of course, its not all sunshine and rainbows, the rain still pours sometimes but i feel better equipped to deal with it, not run from it and start anew the next day.

if anyone wants a reading, id be glad to do it for free, just so you can see how amazing it is. im not tooting my own horn here. what i mean is, how amazing the tarot is, like at getting to the heart of the matter.
when i do a reading, i dont like to know about your sitaution or your question, i think it s better that way so that i dont accidently allow my own opinion to seep in. is rather let the cards speak for themselves through my intuition.
i dont claim to be pychic or clairevoiant. though i do believe i am clairaudient (ii hear things i shouldnt be able to)
before doing a reading, i calm my mind and try not to think. I allow whatever messages i hear in my head (through my intuition, (its not like i hear voices in my head. that can send me to the loony bin) )But when I allow my intuition to speak, I dont know in what context i may be saying som**hing but it usually has special meaning to my client. and that is what is amaze balls

I will give you an example of a reading:
when i began the reading, i let my mind, my own thoughts get in the way . for some reason, i assumed this pretty young woman sitting in front of me, was inquiring about love or her boyfriend.
but my intuition quickly interrupted me and let her know what i was hearing. I was able to give her details while drawing cards to enhance what i was hearing., about her situation that i would have no way of knowing about normally, she didnt say much, i think she was a skeptic. But as it turns out, she was wondering about this emotional split that was dividing her family/ it was being caused by her parents, particulary her father who did not like the woman his son, her brother was marrying. i could have never guessed that that is what she wanted to know about. the cards and my intuition easied her mind, and i advised her, cause that what i was told in my head to do, that she should stick by her brother and support his fiance because there was a secret reason the father hated her (som**hing to do with she reminded him of som**hing or someone)and that once that was out in the open, things would calm down.

I just wanted to give an example of how accurate I am allowed to be by the Universe. We all have our intuition to guide us, I just learned how to know the difference between my random thoughts and those that arent mine during a reading. i know they arent mine cuz they dont make sense to me. I once blurted out to this guy during a reading. "her heart" and i felt like crying. that meant nothing to me, i wasnt sad or anything prior to the reading but it made sense to him, he used to call his daughter, "his heart" but now cuz they were separated, her heart was aching, and I could feel her ache and miss her dad so much. the universe wanted him to know she thought of him
its those intuitive messages that the Universe gives me during a reading for the client. that are mind blowing ever time it do it

these are just ransom examples, i adhere to strict confidentiality and a code of ethics that the majority of tarot readers abide by. I will post my code of ethics soon on my Eagle Empress Tarot Page and i will aslo post about why i named my tarot reading business Eagle Empress.
like i was saying, I would not tell anyone what was revealed in your readng without your permissoon. I gave no detials in my examples about who this woman or man was, where or how i did the reading or even when i did the reading. i offered their story to show that this s**t really works and can help.
squirrel,,,,,,
did you ever hear the radio on outside or you swear one is on somewhere in the house? that happened to me alot and I thought i was nuts but i read that that is part of a claire-audient ability. clair-audeient. (im totally spelling that wrong oh well)Audio meaning-hearing. a clairwaudeint can HEAR other worlds, dimensions or even the thoughts of neighbours or even people far away. that they may or may not know.
for some reason, we can tune into others or other universes or realities like a radio can tune into a particular station. I wish i could fine tune it though, im sure if i studied it, i can increase that ability.

i can handle being clair audent but any of the other claires, the other abilites, no thanks, Id rather NOT SEE, FEEL, SMELL or have som**hing TOUCH me or anything or anyone or any...unknown contacting me like that on a regukar basis. that would freak me the f**k out. I dont mind hearing that strange radio thats on but not really on anywhere near me . id rather that than see a Casper or Amintyville my house.
I have actually consciously asked the Universe to please put those gifts on hold if i do have them until i am ready for them or when i understand it better.

I believe that when i was younger i shut these gifts down cuz ii was afraid or didnt understand it cuz it doesnt seem foreign to me to expeirience or even thinkof such things occuring in the world. im very open to knowing more, but not too much more, k universe.

Universe, by the way is what i call my Higher Power, the God Flame, or whatever you want to call the omnipresent being or beings that created this and everything in us, the GOD Spark, our Light, the SOurce of everything. The dude upstairs with a white beard, or Jason Mamoa, whatever you want to call it. i call mine the Universe. but when I pray or speak to Him in person, i call HIm God,

you know, had you told me 10 years ago that i would be righting a post like this, i would have told you that it must suck for me in the mental hospital where im doing tarot readings and listening to other dimesions in my head. cuz i was a sceptic. honestly, i thought tarot readers were scam artists preying on hurt /alone or confused people begging for answers or solice. and im sure there are some readers out there who do operate like that. but i read tarot because i want to help people, i want to make their life easier ro understand and help them find clairity in their own lives.

I am blessed to have stumbled on tarot.
I was going through the worst moments of my life, having failed as a parent, and having fell into addiction so horribly. hurting my children but not being able to just quit. i felt so low and unbelievably alone.
tarot readers seemed to speak right to me when i watched them on youtube. i couldnt believe it, how the f**k are they doing that? this is a recording some person i dont know far away in the states who is speaking directly to me and knows details of my situation. i honesyly though ti was the drugs making me THINK that this was real but it wasnt, just the drugs.
that one tarot reader gave me the feeling that i wasnt alone, that i wasnt a bad person and that she cared for me. i know, how sad was i to have to look that deeply into som**hing on tv to make me feel like a human again. but it helped me gain insight into my issues and it began my spiritual wakenng and eventually brought me into recovery.
and that is exactly what i want to do for some broken hopeless person out there with my readings which i will eventually be posting on youtube as general collective readings. i have filmed myself doing a practice run and i can provide the same quailty reading that others do on youtube. im not going to show my face, just my topless b***s and the cards. im kidding of course, or am i?

speaking of the tarot leading to my eventual recovery from addiction (thats not to say that was the only thing or force that lead to me getting clean,like the support i got from Chief and counsil while i was learning how to live alife in recovery and of course, the support of my mom and my beautiful children)
squirrell...
as i was saying
about recovery, as of OCt 4, 2024, i am one year clean off of all mind and mood altering substances. ya me, i didnt think i could do it. but here i am doing it. but I didnt make a big deal of my one year clean date milestone. usually at one year, your friends in recovery get you a special chip and they dedicate the meeting to you (but its really not about the person, its about showing the newcomer that the 12 step program works if you work it and you can lose the desire to get high.) at a milestone celebration meeting, your friends would get up to the podium and say how proud they are of you, how much they love you and maybe even, roast you a little bit and they would bring an actuak birthday cake. to commemorate this firstnyear of your new life.

but i didntdo all that, i just went up quietly at the end of the meeitnd to get my chip. Some of my friends, yes i have real friends now, where shocked and a little mad that i didnt tell them that a milestone was cominf up. im didnt get clean to get accolades, i got clean so that i can live my life as my authentic self and be som**hing grand, like i was meant to be ( i plan to be a self=made milllionaire by the time I am 60 yrs old) i got clean so that i can have a relarionship with both of my childrem, who last year were on the brink of writing me off for good,they didnt say it but i could feel it coming if i didnt show them with my actions that im changing my life, for real this time. I need them in my life, so i told myself that ididnt need the drugs anymore, and i was introduced to the 12 step AA< NACMA,etc way of life that became the solition to the addiction problem i was having. even that. the 12 step programs, i was skeptical but it works.

when i was using the drugs,they justnwerent fun anymore and ifelt like a useless piece of s**t,not contributing to society or my family.

i only wish that i had doneit sooner so my kids didnt have to be in the system(or that some one in my family could have stepped up and took my kids in like my mom did when her siblings where struggling with addiction, cuz that is exactly what i would have done if the roles were reversed. but no, my son still sleeps in a group home he hates because everyone in my family is sooo busy and cant take it an independent 15 year old who has a killer sense of humour and is followed around by admirers, some perople call them friends but they way they are around him, hes the glue/cuz hes that awesome. but hes too much for anyone to take in, like really, your not going to be changing diapers or feeding him. if yo dont kinship from youe heart, then how about your wallet cuz chid welfare pays good to keep these children, like its enough to be considered a monthly wage by some people,
yay i had to get that off my chest, i know they are my chidlren, my reponsiblity and i should have got off my ass earlier and i should have punched my lawyer for covincing me that i was gonna lose anyway and a trial would only be worse for me, what an as***le but i was alone, no one came to speak for me except my mom so i lost custody. yesm ultinately, i take full responsiblity because im an adult like that. and my mom cant take them in, she did for a long time but shes retired or shud be retiring and cant do it, i dont blame her.
the reason why this bugs me so much is because i KNOW that i would have took in anyone of my younger cousins or all of them if there parents where haiving a hard time, no matter where i was in life. in fact, one of the CW workers asked me if i would consder taking Candice; boy and girl in, when i am more settled, and i will seriously look into that.
i hope i made you all feel guilty. gage is fine ,strong and reslient and cuz he has me and his sister near him and will stay near him no matter where they put him next because thats what MY family does. me, aydan, gage and stacey stick by each other like that despite everything that tried to tear us apart, i am so proud of my little family. thanks kohkom for teaching me that loyalty

holy s**t char. settle down
anyway,
it took me so long to quit drugs cuz i was trying to find a loophole somewhere where i can get high all i want and it DOESNT tear my life apart.(yes, i was delusional)
i still thought i could use like gentleman, who only has a social drink when hes out with friends then goes home to bed cuz it didnt control him or f**kup his life, he could put the drink down if he wanted to.
but unfortunately, there is no gentleman who only has a social hit of m**h or fentynal. that s**t runes your life, its not a social drug, you dont do a hit and go to your accounting job, you do a hit and tear apart a bike or radio for no reason and say "your busy" and its totally normal to vacuum your sidewalk. hard drugs dont work that way and addicts dont respond the same to a substance the way a normal perosn does. this is proved by science, its not just an excuse.
i couldnt stop, it wrecked my body and my mind. but i couldnt stop until i hit a rock bottom so terrifying that i would do anything to aviod that. my rock bottom was the very real realization that my children would cut me out of their lives (like dyllan did to his mom,my sister) that terrifiying bottom got me to go to Kapown and put my all into it. i lost them once and couldnt lose them forever, if i had anything to say about.

and drug use wrecked my mind too, i used to be very smart, graduated high school with honors and that came easy for me, i was going to go to pre-med. som**hing i have noticed since i have been clean, that i cant think as quickly as i used to, and i get numbers confused. i can see a phone number and know what they are but when i got to write is down, its not even close to the number i just saw crazy and my speech , im not as articulate as i used to be, i sturggle to find the right words in time or i say a sentence all back ward. like id say "farther the way i seen him" that would come out when what i wanted to say while it was in my head was "the guy is too far way for me to see him clearly" the kids laugh at how i talk like that sometimes

lim only in my first yead clean and i know the brain and body are amazing at repairing themselves but im kinda worried.
so, if you get anything from this post (one, im trying to drum up business for my tarot readings) but mainly, DONT DO DRUGS!! they f**k you up. in sooo many ways.

im proud to be an addict though because it has made me one strong mother f**ker, i clawed my way back from a s**thole hell that most couldnt fathom or survive.
i read an artical recently where a person made a comment that p**sed me off, they were so proud to say, "my kids arent into drugs, thank god"
you know, in reality its not cuz you parented them perfectly, its just the luck of the draw. addiction can affect anyone, not one single family or perosn is immune.
and just because they dont hit the m**h pipe,
addiction is addiction is unhealthy behaviors.
its just not as obviois as the crackhead walking down the street twitching or the ju**ie passed out at the bus stop, some dont even notice that their unhealthy behavior is bordering on addiction. which is sad, but go ahead be proud your kids dont use drugs, but id keep an eye on them. they could right now be functioning addicts who still work and have their kids because there life hasnt blown up on them .... yet.
i dont know, the whole thing mafde ne mad because the person was interviewed to talk about the devasting effects that addiction is causing in our home communities, they were acting all compassionate, but they made sure they interjected that THEIR kids are not drug users. like why slip that in. like it seemed a little pompous. and made their previous remarks seem ingenuine.
dont pretend to have compasion for the addict and the addicts family but make sure the world knows that your kids are saints. i would never say that, cuz thats just like, inviting karma to come show a thing or too.
just saying. no one asked if your kids do drugs, you were there to comment on the drug problem and sound supportive of the horror that families are going through, but your kids arent drug users. i better mention that before you do

ps. i lost my sister to addiction recently and i still cant fathom how easily addiction can take someone away. before she passed, i wrote in my journal that i wanted my sister back and that i hoped i would get her back before it kills her, until it did

then my cousin bobby passed away from the same batch of bad drugs, i bet, but what really hurt after that is having my spouse accused of killing him. like really, how dare you, my spouse was about the only person who accepted bobby for who is was . he would come vist my man(and not for drugs), they were friends. even though i always tried to kick bobby out. my spouse welcomed him in then to have someone burst into my home, into my bedoom while i was sleeping, yelling at top of their lungs that i have a piece of s**t for an old man, that they were soo sure he gave bobby the drugs. you do know that local drug dealers will come directly out to duncan and hand deliver the drugs to anyone with money on our rez, my spouse isnt one of those drug dealers as much as you want him to be, but that is just not what he is, which is a great dad and very supportive husband to me over the last 19 years weve been together. everyone has a past,
but "dont call him crazy......" i can write a poem too about not judging those "crazy guys on a city train" but i wouldnt then go and make a very unfounded accusation, disrupting my time with my children, on someone you never bothered to get to known personally, I wouldnt write a poem preaching to us to not judge or
"call him crazy"that hguy on the bus or train or whatever it was.

its a little hypocrital. and just like the "crazy" guy on the train, you dont know what my man has been through. or how much hes changed since having and wanting me and the kids in his life. he still smiles at everyone and remains polile to everyone in our community while being there for me and my kids (whoa re not his biologically but are his in every other way)
if i were him, id be a starught up asshiole and terrorist to people who judge me like that. id do sneaky s**t behind their back or shave their head or maybe make a false accusation to the cops too in relalitation. but lucky im not him, and he wouldnt even think of doing the s**t i just thought of off he top of my twisted and possible mean head. he's stable and healthy, he grew up as most people do, you shud try it.
note: the cops never came to speak to me or my spouse following bobbys death despite probably being urging to look his way, I am down right appalled at that person actions (likely they will read this and wonder why im not over it and still make me out to be the bad guy ) the cops didnt question him because they look at facts instead of forming a linch mob to get everyone on your side to hang someone you hope really is a bad guy
no hard feelings though cuz once this rant is over, im done with it. cuz this aint worth my energy, i got an awesome marriage to attend to and loving children to p**s off..
wow, that felt good. now ican let that s**t go.
i just love stirring the pot, whats wrong with me, oh ya, im sober!! watch out world!!

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06/25/2024

this is kinda a long post (forwarning)

Yesterday, (Sunday)
I had one of the best days I have had in Along time. I set up as a vendor at the Grande Prairie Pow wow. i got to spend the whole weekend with both of my children, Aydan ANd Gage (with my ma and Courtney as their official caregivers for the visit) I love being able to spend long, unintertupted time with them like this. Thanks to our new caseworker (she drove us from Edmonton to Duncan on Thursday) for organizing longer and more frequents visits. i like this caseworker, she is understanding, easy to talk to and she gets things done: my daughter mentioned an issue that she was having with her house manager (who child welfare pays) and the caseworker got on the phone (safely though cuz we were on the road) and resolved the situation to Aydan's satisfaction. our old caseworkers would have either dismissed or downplayed Aydan;s issue and nothing would change or get done, would have told Aydan that they couldnt do anything about it, OR, worst yet, would have said she will handle it at the office and she wouldnt even look into it further and nothing would change or get done, but this new caseworker handled the situation in real time and the situation changed ana\d som**hing actually got done. I only just met this worker but that alone, is a good sign. She also said that it is possible that I can have my children back home with me before they turn 18. She believes me when i say that I quit the drugs and have been living a sober lifestyle for almost a year now, maybe because she only met and saw me drug-free from the get-go. But I love how she has the open mind to believe that people can change and it is worth giving people a second chance. AS well as listening to the childrens concerns and be willing to take action. my children have gotten so used to nor being heard and nothing getting done or having their say in things. She involves me too. After the Permanent Guardianship Order passed, I diidnt hear from the caseworker for 3 months and then has the nerve to say that I dropped off the radar! I have been offering to undergo random drug tests for over a year (since a couple months after the PGO, well over a year but no other caseworker has put that in place and she is willing to start them up again. The first time I talked to her, she told me that she believes that children belong with their birth mother (provided she did the work to fix the issues that put the children in care) or at the very least, back in their home community. Our old caseworker refused to put my kids in kinship care even when it was available. Kinship care is when the children go to a member if the extended family, either in their home community or outside it) as opposed to putting a child in a institutional group home. Some one in my family agreed to take AYdan and Gage in but my then caseworker, Madeline, said no and moved them into a group home (which was a bad experience for both of them). I advocated for them and questioned this decision but she had the "justified" reason that the children need to be together, so that they to get to know each other again before returning to our home community because they have been in separate group homes for a year. Gage was removed from a really awesome group home for boys, run by a native guy, where Gage was happy to be living, to go to this group home where AYdan was living INSTEAD of coming back to our home community and live with a family member! im still angry about that one but Im working to let the situation go and forgive Madeline and her supervisor amd our previous caseworker Jacaey who was so underqualified to be put in a postion that directly affects someone life. im sure she did well in her previous job as a waitress bur she should not be working in this area. I hope she is not still working in the area. yes, I have to forgive them for all the wrong decisions they made that caused more trauma to my children that could have been easily prevented if they read, replied and took action to what i wrote to them over the years, forgive them for being wrong about me, for assuming s**t about my family, for placing them so far away, and so much more, This isnt misplaced blame, I have taken full responsibilty for everything tha I have done or nor done that put them and then keep them in care. I have finally forgiven myself for causing them to be placed in care, so I really need to forgive the others involved. I will always be grateful that they went into care when they did because it literally saved my little family. had we continued on that path were i didnt think i had a problem, who knows where my children would be today. im sure they would have picked up an addiction or teen oregancy would have been an issue or worse. instead, i got the help i needed and so did they. plus I leanred HOW to be a parent. parenting skils were not given to me because they were taken away vy the residential school my grandma was forced to go to,
anyway, I look forward to working with this new caseworker and my children do too.

This year and for the first time since I have been a vendor at pow wows, I offered to do Tarot card readings. I would not have been able to do it if Aydan and Gage werent there to handle the customers while I was busy. I love seeing them with potential customers, they are so polite and professional. I am so glad that I was able to do readings because its so worth the anxiety. I get stressed before i do a reading (I have a tarot reader's confidence issue that tells me that Im not good enough or that I wont get any querants despite the big sign above my head behind me (see sign below). it was a slow start but After the first querant broke the ice on Sunday afternoon, alot more people were interested. I am so glad I decided to do it (with my children;s help, of course) because I KNOW that I was able to help my querants by the look on their faces during and especially, after the reading: the smile, the sense of relief, all their tension gone. I love to see them smile but I dont bulls**t them or sugar coat anything that may come up in their reading. I tell them what my intiuiton tells me to tell them. also, I dont ask them to tell me their question or explain their situation before the reading, either. I think that the reading will be more genuine if i dont know what they are asking about so that i dont inject my personal opinion on the situation. Not everyone asks about their love life so i dont assume that that is what a woman may be wondering about. The Universe always amazes mei, more so in some readings. I cant believe how accurate I was in describing their situation (with the use of the cards)and being able to help the person. The cards in no way predict the future and I dont consider myself a psychic or a medium or fortune teller. I am empathic and highly intuitive. and when that is combined with the rto ight deck of cards, a good reader can really help a person understand whats going on, offer them new perspective and guide them in the right direction towards revolving their issue or concern. Anyway, I did very well adding the tarot readings, On Sunday, the money I made doing the readings was as much as I made the day before selling my hand crafted products. it is som**hing I will definately do again if i have help,
As i said, I had a great day and time in GP at the pow wow. And then that night, I went to Grimshaw bingo with my mom. I get so much energy after I do readings, that I didnt want to go home just yet, so I went to bingo with my mom because I felt like I was going to win. normallyI dont go to bingo often and when i do, i dont win. except the last couple of times i went, all of a sudden, i will get the idea out of nowhere, that I should go plat bingo with my mom because I get the feeling i will win. I also go to spend time with my mom in her element. last night, I went, and I won $140 AND my mom won a nice amount just before i did towards the end of the bingo. That ended the day perfectly, I came home, tided up a bit and had a really good sleep.
But that was yesterday.
How things can change and your feelings can go from getting a natural high because of choices you make to feeling sad, confused and angry from a situtation that was out of my control.
Today, I got my day started, I find out that my sister Jules. The inly sister I have with my mom and my dad. I have other siblings on my day side but their was only 3 of us from my mom's side. My brother passed away from su***de when I was 21 and now I love my sister to addiction. We dont know for sure yet, of course, but that is what Im thinking is the cause. She was found on her couch with no signs of obvious trauma.
Im still in shock. On our last visit (the peace river pow wow June 1 and 2) I stopped at her place after walking to the Duncan store because I hadnt seen her since she completed her residential treatment program, The same one I went to last fall, that program changed my life and I wanted to see how she was doing. But she was messed up when I got there and we were arguing as i left. It really saddened me. On her birthday (june 9) i wrote in my journal that i wished I had my sister back because the person she was was not the person i grew up with. I was thinking that I hoped that she got clean before she dies. The drugs out there now are so dangerous. and they ruin lives, not just the addicts but everyone around them as well. Som**hing that i just realized, is that I didnt want to go use drugs when I found out. Its been the first thing that I wanted to do after most of the deaths I have experienced. But today, i didnt event think about it till now. I dont want to go use now but I am happy that that wasnt my go-to response to hearing of someone death. Narcotics Anonymous teaches that you never have to use again no matter what. and now, i see that one promise coming true in my life. thank you Universe for that gift.
But despite the fact that my sister was using drugs in the last few years, she was not just an addict, she was my sister. and I dont want her to be remembered as just an addict, She was a person. who had a great life before drugs. she was A very talented artist. she worked as the duncan receptionist for a long while, she was a mother, among other things
we didnt always get along but Iwe would forgive and forget because we were sisters. I love my sister Jules, I cant believe she is gone.
I am relieved that I was here on Duncan when it happened because I would have hated to get the call while in the city at my Recovery House. And I dont have to make that horrible call to my children to tell them that they lost yet another close family member.
I want to thank my friends who have offered their condolences. Thank you for giving us privacy. I hope the rumour mill doesnt get going to try to ruin a celebration of someones life by those who used to make fun of her when they ran into her while she was using. I honestly dont want to hear one of those people offer me any condolences. it would be hypocritical and ingenuine. they would be doing it because they feel guilty about how they treated her and not saying it because they care about me handling her death. yes, i have resentments for some people in my home community that I have to resolve and I will. I will forgive them in time so i can be free. because forgiveness is NOT about the person you feel did you wrong, its about you and your freedom from the chains of deep seated hate. I believe that what has passed, is gone. why should one keep it so close that it comes out and you can see it in their eyes. Leaning to let go and LEt God, is freeing.. I will have a very hard time letting go of my sister but I know that God does have her with HIM and I dont have to worry about her anymore.