07/02/2025
Time for some vulnerability and truth.
I returned from a 5-day backpacking trip with my Mom a few days ago I want to share my experience from the first day of our backpacking trip.
I will start with some background so that the following information makes sense.
I have had surgery on my right knee. The kneecap slipped out of place a few times when I was younger, which left me on crutches for a couple of weeks each time. After the third time, I was scheduled for surgery, and I still don't actually know what they did. There are a couple screws in there somewhere...but the medical speak was too much for me at that age, and I tuned it out while experiencing tremendous anxiety.
Fast forward to now...
Day one of our trip started out with pain in my left knee (not the one that had undergone surgery), which wasn't great.
The terrain we were hiking was really rough, with lots of twisting of the knee and strain on ankles (walking on an angle for several kilometres). About halfway through day one, I had rolled both ankles, my left knee was on fire, and my right knee (surgery knee) wasn't doing great either.
I was in tears while walking.
Mom kept checking on me, and I wondered why I had agreed to do this in the first place (and if I had lost the ability to backpack, as well as the joy that usually came with it).
Mom and I ended the day, and I could not bend my right knee at all, and my left was pretty stiff, too. My ankles were not great, and I basically set up my tent, sat on the ground, and did not move much.
I cried a few more times out of frustration (again), and we discussed the possibility of having to call Search and Rescue to remove us from the trail if I was unable to walk in the morning.
When I woke up in the morning, there was no more pain, and we decided to move on.
I completed the 5-day trip, and I'm glad I did.
Why did I share this? Just part of trying to pull back the curtain, and show that not everything is what you see in photos.
The photo I chose to share is night one, and I had just finished crying. When I took the picture, I honestly thought I wouldn't be able to finish the trip I'd been planning for the past six months.