02/05/2026
✨️️ I've got a little story, if you have time. 😭 Real. Unaesthetic. Sweaty. Teary. Emotional. Raw. Healing.
Way back in June, I was smack in the middle of the {then unknown} BVAD happening in my brain. We thought I was having a bad migraine. Sometimes the blood flow of a workout would help a migraine or headache, so I thought I would to go to the gym with Stew. I tried "just one plate" of each exercise, and the pain was too excruciating. I remember sitting on a machine in silence, tears rolling down my cheeks, and I look towards my sweet husband who had been watching me and he mouths, "are you ok?". I shook my head. "Awww, babe." He replied. He just always knows.
Well, I've been back at the gym 2-3x / week with Stew. I'm doing Functional Movement and proprioception work trying to focus on the neurological deficits I now have and the MSK imbalances that have been created. I'm sooooo grateful I can be my own trainer for this 🙏
Anyway, I've been having a tough couple days. Tonight at the gym everything felt extra hard. I was in "the hallway" (IYKYK) doing a walking/balance exercise that requires a lot of concentration. I was sweating, my eyes were filled with tears and I was digging deep recalling that moment so many months ago when my husband had my back~ it had randomly popped into my mind and was on replay....when I literally looked over my shoulder, and there he was. Right there in the hallway with me. My Stewie. He just always knows. This time when he asked "are you ok?", I replied "yeah, it's just hard is all". I smiled. He smiled and smacked my butt.
I surrender to this journey being difficult.
I can fu***ng do anything with this man behind me, literally.
❤️💪
