02/17/2024
There's so much I'd like to tell that tired face...
One day, you'll wonder if he's ok because he's slept for longer than two hours in a row.
One day, you'll stop posting in sleep forums for advice. You'll stop scouring the internet for solutions. Because you've found the answer within yourself.
One day, he'll let his dad rock him to sleep without screaming. You'll feel redundant but in a good, freeing way. You'll dance around the kitchen in celebration at your newfound sense of freedom, not quite knowing what to do with yourself.
One day, 2.5 years in, he will sleep through the night for the first time, and you'll be really chuffed. But it won't be the all-singing, all-dancing fanfare you've imagined all this time. Because the acceptance came sooner.
One day, you'll catch sight of yourself in the mirror and see a well-rested person staring back at you. The colour having slowly returned to your face.
One day, you'll no longer run on empty but rather a full (ish) tank. You'll start the day with a spring in your step rather than a tired trudge.
One day, you'll think back to those damning conversations and wonder why you ever let them fill your head with doubt.
One day, you'll look back with nothing but pride at the way you responded to your child's needs, in a world that still seems so strangely intent on denying them.
Art: https://www.instagram.com/carolinewalkerartist?igsh=anRqM29iNnB2c3cy
Words: Mother Truths
Taken from: 'Lessons: Reflections on Early Motherhood'
Available to buy worldwide: http://linktr.ee/mother_truths
