05/07/2026
My late mom used to say when hearing bad news " you need that like you need a hole in the head" or when asking for something ridiculous, either one. LOL. Well something I certainly didn't need was the outcome of my surgical consult last week. Not good news. I am NOT a candidate for surgery. 😪 Unless I get my weight down AGAIN this time by 180 pounds and then he wouldn't do a hip replacement - they would do something called a girdle, which would clean out all of the arthiritis and fuse the femur in. My lymphedem makes me HIGH risk for infections and a metal replacemet would cause infection and consequent surgery on top of each other, repeatedly until I would end up a mess. Too much bone has been eaten away by the arthiritis. Not the news I was hoping for, what I was hoping for was an easy easy hip replacement. NOW I have to see my gp (next month) and get on a glp1. Unless the bariatric surgery (that I've been on the waitlist for) call comes sooner. I've gained back ALL of the weight I had lost in 2023/24, and then some. I don't know if I'm shocked or devastated, probably both. Kayla asked if I'm just meant to suffer with this excruciating pain for the rest of my life? Dr. McGale replied that back 20 or 30 years ago that is exactly what would.have had to happen. She replied that 20 or 30 years ago people only lived to 50 years old. He really didn't know what to say. I've had a mobility assessment and AHS is going to recommend an occupational health assessment. My home will be equipped with all the new fangled mobility aids, I'll get a sturdy walker and new canes too, perhaps. One friend suggested I get a second opinion and ask specifically for a female surgeon. Another friend mentioned that they base surgery on your age and your productivity to society. and I find that very interesting. I've spent the week in my feels and I hear my mom saying "you sure didn't need this." I sure didn't!! Right now I can't see what the fkn lesson might be but I do have faith and I am sure creator isn't done with me yet. I will smudge and pray on it. I knew I had "severe arthiritis " in both hips for YEARS and never gave it much though because I was fine and the pain was manageable with an advil here and there - until Nov 2024, where I "sat funny" (?) and fell off a stool.
I'm canceling this month's class, going to put the big girl panties back on and I am offering phone and video readings unless someone vehemently insists on an in person because I can't afford not to. An appointment next month with my GP and perhaps another with the pain specialist. Staying on the path and walking in the light?
Should I BLOG this journey?
