12/24/2025
It has taken me years to pause (and feel safe).
To stop thinking about what’s next.
To stay present with myself long enough to understand why I was collapsing.
To trust that whatever came up, I could meet it.
To feel the overwhelm without hiding.
To let the tears of grief fall
and still meet the next moment with laughter.
This year, I’m having a calm-hearted, present Christmas.
If I feel overwhelmed, I let it move through.
If I need space, I take it.
If I want connection, I lean in.
If I want rest, I don’t negotiate with myself.
I don’t force joy.
I don’t manage my emotions.
I don’t brace for what might happen next.
I stay here.
This is what self-trust looks like for me now —
not control,
not performance,
just presence.
And it turns out, this is where the peace lives.