02/05/2022
Hair can be a time capsule.
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And when you’re a neurodivergent sparkly fella with a penchant for uniqueness, you tend to change your hair often. So here we are again, freshly shaven… and 40 years old.
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In March 2020 (shall she forever Rest In Peace), I decided to stop cutting my hair until things went back to “normal”. Little did I know my hair would have to grow past my shoulders before normalcy felt within reach.
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I’ve always believed hair is a place where memory, emotion, and magic are stored. Whether it’s the 7 years of hair (ahem… dreadlocks) that I wore (ahem… appropriated) in my late teens, or the wavy locks I cut off this week, removing hair has always been a conscious transition beyond beauty.
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Let’s get clear. I’ve been stuck in the muck since 2020. While friends and colleagues adapted with ease to working from home, straddling their pelotons and healthy new habits, I felt like I was peddling backwards.
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Maybe “we’re all in this together” didn’t include those of us already struggling - those masking and mimicking, with well-calculated rhythms and routines built over a lifetime. Resilience may be a dish I’m privileged enough to know how to prepare, but maybe I just happen to like the taste of chaos better.
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But even chaos can become bland and boring… perhaps even “normal”. So turning 40 became this opportunity to shift, to take a moment to just cut away the bulls$$t. To ground myself once again in the strength and resilience that was there all along.
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Distraction. Inattention. Even a willingness toward change can be as much our superpower as the change itself. Because in time, even the slowest of us will shift our positions and Trevor, my friend… chop, chop… it’s time to start growing again.
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