10/17/2025
Aging. It snuck up on me. I’m still 27 in my head but my body and grey hairs say otherwise.
Add in about 10 years of a slow and steady decline in my investment in my own health. Every year I lost just a little more of the strength I built to stress, depression, excuses, doom scrolling, s**t eating,and life. I let the fact that I still fit into most of my clothes hide my body changes. And then when they became obvious I let depression eat through the self hatred. As the years passed, I rode my bike less, ran even less, and let work justify my lack of energy. I’d make goals in my head, plan out my efforts to renew my fitness, buy the gear or clothing I swore would make it easier….and then not show up.
But I hiked. And walked. I went outside. It was about the only thing that didn’t make me feel like s**t - physically and mentally.
It was better than nothing.
But it’s not enough. Not for me anyway. The truth is - I am lucky that I built my body, strength and endurance when I did. I’ve lost it….but not all of it. Without that hard earned foundation I would not be where I am right now. I’d be fatter, slower, weaker - there is no doubt about that. So as I sit here, humble and self disapproving in front of this mirror - I am at least grateful for my past. Where I start now is not at zero. But the hardest struggle I have is NOT comparing then to now. It is what it is……start where you are.
Strength training is proven to be a large contributing factor to how fit, able, and safe you are in your later years. Middle age, probably early peri-menopause, and a decline in my previous fitness has scared the s**t out of me. I want to be hiking when I’m 80, carrying groceries with ease, able to get off the ground myself, and less prone to falling. That doesn’t happen without the input now. I’m more afraid of losing my future ability than I am of what I let slide to this point.
Every effort put into strength training will renew and protect me in my outdoor activities now and in the future. I’ve always known this. I have a few trail races next year and hopes to the West Coast Trail. So…….I’m starting where I am today. It’s a future forward gift to myself.