02/03/2023
Hi, it's me... Taylor.
I haven't been very good at this whole social media thing this year... but especially not this last month. So I figured since it's March 1st and I have NO idea where all of February went, I would drop in with why I have been so absent.
As you already know, on February 2nd, I got engaged to the most amazing man and love of my life, Chad. Since then, life has been a blur of absolutely incredible moments that have completely captivated me.
I said yes to the dress with my mom, maid of honor/best friend/future sister-in-law, and my mother-in-law.
I became an aunty for a 2nd and 3rd time to the two most precious baby girls, Zoey and Annie.
I bought a new vehicle. This was a big one for me that brought up a lot of emotion from the trauma I experienced losing my job during covid and having to sell my truck. Finally, being at a place financially where I could make this decision was HUGE.
I am almost at the halfway mark for my Yoga Teacher Training, and although I've been struggling to stay on top of everything, this group has been so loving and encouraging.
I got my own freaking business cards and transitioned from a student coach to a graduate coach! *crying*
Looking back at this month has been so eye-opening. Finally feeling like my life is at a place where I'm so busy catching blessing, I don't have space for anything else. That being said, while I was in the midst of this all, that wasn't the feelings I was having.
I found myself in a serious low. Falling father behind in all the things needing to be done, but trying to enjoy all the things going on. I felt like I was in a hole, at the bottom of a mountain, and couldn't find the strength to start climbing.
Turns out good stress is still stress. Meaning my body was feeling all these amazing things, but still ending up in a place of burnout due to that constant stimuli of my sympathetic nervous system. I never knew it was even possible. I dreamt of my life evolving into this beautiful state I'm in now, but never did I think I'd end up depressed from it.
I had to take some time to allow my body to rest and shift into its parasympathetic state. Honoring what my body needed, I was able to have space to process all of these blessings. One by one letting myself feel them, be excited about them, and allow them to become a part of me in a healthy way.
Remember, we all respond to life events differently based on the things we have already experienced in our lives. Your feelings are valid, real, and deserve to be taken seriously. Just because it doesn't feel "right" to be feeling depressed despite so many great things happening, doesn't mean you just stop feeling that way. Honor your body, mind, and soul and do exactly what you need in those moments... or on my case whole months. ♡