12/05/2024
Words canāt describe how grateful I am that you chose me to be your mother. To guide you, teach you, learn from you, love you unconditionally, support you in your hopes and dreams, and show you the world. Thereās no greater honour than to be holding your little hand as we walk this new path together.
For a long time, I questioned if I would experience motherhood. Iāve wanted to be a mother since I was a little girl, and always pictured my future with a family, but for a long time, I questioned whether that would be my reality. I didnāt meet my person until I was 37 and our circumstances presented so many challenges, I have struggled with endometriosis for most of my life, which can have an irreparable impact on your fertility, and several other factors stacked the deck against me. But despite the odds, I held on to the hope that I would be a mother one day, in one way or another.
I spent years and an insane amount of time and money, focusing on preparing my body to conceive and carry a child. I did everything from functional medicine protocols, acupuncture, supplements, western fertility medicine, and psychotherapy, to detoxifying my home/body/life, reiki, meditation, and a laundry list of more holistic methods. Can I pinpoint what ultimately worked? Of course not. Did all of it combined help to prepare my body to receive and nurture a pregnancy? Maybe?! All I know is that fertility is insanely complex and beautiful and also beyond miraculous. So many things have to align exactly right for it to work. Mine is a success story, but that doesnāt mean that if I hadnāt conceived when I did, that it wouldāve been a failure.
Fertility is a difficult topic for many of us who are hoping to or trying to conceive, and it was for me for a long time. My heart goes out to those of you who dream of growing your family and are experiencing challenges, losses, or are unsure what the future holds. I see you and Iām sending you so much love today and every day ā¤ļø