07/17/2025
🌻Vulnerable Post🌻
Yesterday I was told something that both confirmed my fears…and gave me a sense of peace…(well, still working on the peace part)
I’ve always known that I listened a bit differently — I’ve been what some might call a “visual listener” for most of my life. I can recall my Mom having to come get me in person for supper or to get my attention if I was focused on something. As I grew up, I learned to rely on tone, body language, & energy just as much as words. For much of my life, I chalked that up to personality or preference.
I’ve been on a journey for about 6-8 months now, as my hearing has taken a decline — especially the lower tones. But yesterday, after my second hearing test, I learned the in-depth truth: The Audiologist explained that I was most likely born with a mild congenital hearing loss — missing some of the tiny hairs on the cochlea bone that allow us to hear (for me it’s the low tones). And now, as I age, the high tones are beginning to fade too.
The Audiologist gently told me, “Your hearing loss is one of the trickiest to tackle as the hearing aids you’d need can cause feedback.”
And you know what? That hit me deeper than I expected. Not just finding out about my condition, but because of the symbolism.
How many of us go through life trying to “hear clearly,” only to be met with static, distortion, or silence? How often do we feel like our own voice causes feedback — like we’re too much or not enough?
But here’s what I do know:
🦋This isn’t the end of the story. It’s just a deeper layer of understanding.
🦋God doesn’t make mistakes. He designed me, to listen differently, to lead with empathy, to see what others miss.
🦋And now I get to support myself with tools that help me hear the fullness of life again — because I’m worth it.
This is your reminder, friend:
Whatever diagnosis, detour, or delay you’re facing — it doesn’t disqualify you. It may just be the very thing God uses to fine-tune your calling.
P.S. I did tell the audiologist that it was a good thing that I already knew ASL!! 😉