18/10/2021
LIFE IS A ROLLERCOASTER And like the moon š we must go through phases. Phases of feeling lonely, lost, sad, till life brings us around again to the phase of feeling complete, loved, happiness & joy.
Being around my family is what gives me that feeling of completeness, love & joy. I love get togethers but alas the family leaves to go back to their lives & then I feel a bout of loneliness. I spend a lot of time alone, most times Iām okay with it. I actually opt out from doing many things because I am an introvert. As much as I sometimes crave the need to be around people, thereās a pull that keeps me home. I suffer with a bit of social anxiety, I tend to get in my head at times when Iām around other people. I think itās why I donāt have a huge circle of friends.
My family circle is small, I have my girls & my mum & step dad here. My sister, who is my best friend lives in B.C., my Aunt who was the only tie to my Dad, moved back to England. And not having my Dad to visit makes me extra sad at times.
Iām also struggling with the division, judgement & hate going on in the world right now. It makes my heart heavy. I crave the norm, I donāt even know what I can & canāt do to organize a birthday party for my son this Friday! š¤¦āāļø Uuuhhgg! We all have things we struggle with at times, just keeping it real incase anyone can relate š
Brighten my day & tell me what brings you happiness & joy?
Much love ~ Julie š