11/05/2025
Today I hold gratitude for my mom.
Our relationship has not been an easy one.
I was born a very sensitive being with a deep connection to the spirit world and everything that is delicate and full of emotion… and my mom having been born during the war, a refugee within their own country, having to live with her brother and my grandmother at the mercy of a farm family until my grandpa came back from the war a changed man.
Did I ever mention, he walked himself back home from Russia at the end of the war..?
All these experiences of pure survivalism are unthinkable for most of us now.
Understandably , my mom and I were on very different wavelengths .
And its noones fault.
As I grew in my own journey and became my own mothering person to my inner child and eventually a mother myself, I was able to heal my relationship with my mom. Layer by layer.
Year after year.
And even though our relationship has mostly been played out through phone calls over the past 25 years, it feels more authentic and beautiful than I would have ever imagined it could be.
Last summer we got to have time to spend together in person and there was a real sweetness to it that she often refers back to now when we talk on the phone.
Theres is a huge amount of Grace i feel inside. A sense of full circle of being able to truly see my mom for who she is and holding an energy of deep acceptance and generosity towards her after I’ve learned to love myself for who I am.
I allow these beautiful moments to be anchored in my memory of the true essence of love between mother and daughter. That essence that is underneath all of these relationships, once we move past our own personal challenges we come with in this human experience.
Happy Mothers Day to my Mom,
to myself,
to all moms,
to all that wish they were moms and had this wish denied,
and to all children who don’t feel seen, supported and loved in the way the need it.
You all deserve all the love that’s out there.
You are magnificent and
I love you!
🌸🫶💗