31/10/2025
For a long time I believed that as a leader I needed to appear strong and unshakable — that showing my weakness as the spaceholder would make others feel unsafe. But what happened was that people reflected to me they can’t really feel me; because I was only showing the version of myself I thought I had to be in my leadership role and not the fullness of my own humanness.
I recently completed the 8-month Intimacy Training with Buster Radvik. He is the embodiment of vulnerable authethenticity as a leader. Witnessing how powerfully he can stand in his vulnerablity while facilitating, and how he is respected and appreciated for doing that, has shifted my story fundamentally. I learned that leadership isn’t about perfection — it’s about being real. This realization is transforming how I show up.
With this post I am taking a step in showing more of my humanness and allowing myself to be seen in my vulnerability. The truth is I feel very vulnerable taking this big step of carrying the tantra festival forward. It’s both thrilling and terrifying at the same time. Organizing a festival of this size comes with a lot of responsibility and significant financial risk, which I now hold alone. It brings up my existential fears, doubts and edges.
And yet beneath all of that, there is a deep sense of purpose that keeps guiding me forward. Witnessing the profound impact the festival has…
- how people open, heal, and transform
- how the community keeps evolving into a deeper authentic and liberated expression
- how love and awareness ripple outward in daily life and change happens
This is what drives me.
I feel purpose and am connected to my souls mission by creating a space that impacts so many lives.
You are the reason why I’m choosing to step into the scary unknown, face my fears and lean into trust as much as I can.
Thank you for witnessing me in this moment — for seeing both my vulnerability and my devotion. I hope you can feel my heart behind it all.
Much Love,
Ananda (Organiser of the Antara Tantra Festival)
www.antaratantrafestival.com