18/09/2022
Today I want to share a part of my story with you.
Two years ago, I left it all behind and started a new life. It must be to this date, the hardest decision I made, not because it was difficult, but because I knew it implied the death of a part of me that I loved so much, but that could not stay as it was.
When I left, I took only a few winter clothes, because I was supposed to stay only one month in Europe. That month became five, and then five became the realization that I didn't want to go back, because I had nothing to go back to. As simple as that.
The hard part was everything that came afterwards. The decision, the new country, finding a home, finding new friends, new work, and finding myself through it all.
Who am I?
Was a constant questions that went through my head daily.
Who am I really?
I think I would not have been able to find an answer had I not left EVERYTHING behind.
Because I'm not my friendships, I'm not my family, I'm not my work nor my relationships. I'm not my past, nor what I held dear, I'm not my possessions nor my sacred objects. I'm not my dreams nor my goals.
What I AM is undescribable, beautiful, breathtaking, scary and powerful.
I SIMPLY AM.
And as I left it all behind, I found myself, which is the only part you can never truly leave. You might forget it for a while, but you can never leave it.
And so today, here I am. And I finally understand that nothing I have around me is me, but that's exactly the same reason why I am able to value each and every new thing that comes into my life.
Because now I understand that everything else that I accept into my life, enriches what is already there, enriches me.
Abundance is realizing you already have it all within you, and that everything else is just an additional blessing.
Today I'm grateful for the heartbreaking process of Change, as I would not have understood who I am, nor how blessed my life is, had I not gone through it.
This time, I'm the one who's going to decide how I build my whole life.
Because I AM.
And btw, happy birthday to me!! 🥳