05/06/2023
Already two weeks have past since finishing my retreat in Turkey. The retreat was full of surprises, really deep, challenging and wonderful. First surprise was that my teacher Braahman couldn't be physically present on the retreat. So with 20 brave participants, we went on a one-week deep dive into ourselves, to explore blockages, face our deepest wounds and release limiting belief systems. On such a long retreat, we really got to the root of deeply seated traumas and patterns and as a reward of course came the deep transformation.
I really love to lead retreats. I love the flow that goes through me during that time, I love being a channel for higher guidance and most of all I love seeing the transformation that the participants go through. I am so grateful for all of this. 🙏❤️
Even if I myself don't go through letting go of my own patterning during the retreat (I am in a way protected during that time, so that I can act as an instrument for others), I grow and develop with every retreat I lead. Each time the challenges are slightly different. Maintaining energy is very different depending on the number of participants and the length of the retreat. 20 participants from different countries with their own programming, everyone's deepest wounds surfacing, one assistant, (whose patterns were also coming up strongly 😁) and the translation in Turkish (and sometimes also German and Finnish) created completely new challenges. Still, I felt that everything was in perfect flow the whole time.
Most of all, retreats for me are a time of complete surrender. Surrender as a full instrument of higher consciousness.
I can't help but wonder at the wonderful heavenly orchestration that always eventually brings a retreat from all the internal chaos that surfaces to peace, love and joy. ❤️