05/10/2025
salt door
i didn’t build it at first.
i waited beside where it might be,
as if love were a carpenter
and not something that leaves.
i kept the space swept,
as if grief were dust
and not devotion.
some mornings i set a bowl by the threshold—
not offering, not invitation,
just the gesture of someone
who still believes in return.
later, when the waiting wore through,
i gathered what remained:
a fig, bruised sweet at the neck;
a spoon that remembered a mouth;
a shard of mirror still catching light.
i boiled water with thyme.
i stitched linen thread through the frame,
softened with spit and rosemary oil.
the door i built was not of wood.
it was salt crust and wind-warped pine,
its threshold lined with crushed bay and ash.
i pressed my thumb into the grain
until it held my print.
i leaned my ear to it once—just once—
before i finished the hinge.
the silence answered,
but not in my voice.
there was no handle. no latch.
only the ache,
rising like heat,
learning how to walk forward.
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i think this is where i’ll rest a while—
before the air begins to move differently.
i’ll see you on the other side of the salt door. ✧