12/12/2025
For the last few weeks I've been pottering around the house in my free time, tackling various doom piles, goblin corners and chaos shelves. I don't have a lot of free time at all, so It is a slow and relentless task, often with two steps forward and one step back. Weirdly though, since my wren visit, I have actually been thoroughly enjoying it. It is a nice, visible and markable representation of where I am at the moment. Decluttering. Focusing only on the energies that I want around me, and taking up my space in the way that is right for me and my girls.
Last night was one of the most satisfying yet. I am not a handbag kind of girl. I do not have a big array of beautiful handbags, I have one handbag that I like, and will use until it is knackered. At which point, it usually breaks when I am out somewhere. I pick up another one in a hurry from a charity shop or vinted, or perhaps one somebody has given me for Christmas that just got stashed away that I didn't really like but felt like an as***le giving to a charity shop. Only once have I actually spent more than a couple of pounds on a handbag - That was a few years ago when my purse was stolen from my bag in my old place of work. My ex-husband bought me a beautiful new purse with a skull on it, but it was huge and wouldn't fit in my then bag. I actually treated myself to a lovely big bag from killstar.
At some point last year, it got slept on by a muddy dog, and I didn't have time to sort it out before I needed to go out, so I switched out the essentials to an aforementioned Christmas handbag. I also had to switch my cards and change (and magnet and cinnamon and other random crap that I keep in my purse) into a smaller purse that was also a random Christmas gift at some point. My lovely handbag was then hung over the banister to be forgotten about for months and months and months. There was also the little floppy canvas bum bag thing that I take with me camping...
And so last night, while me and my daughters glutwatched Angel, I sat on the floor and sorted through the handbags. I did a very brave thing, yes. Also a reckless and stupid thing but it was tired and out of f*cks, and slung my killstar handbag in the washing machine.
I've often joked that I am apocalypse ready. I didn't realise how true that was until I sorted out my handbags. Sweet mother of Horus, no wonder I have back problems.
Amongst other things, I found three pen knives, A fire starter kit, two chapsticks which must belong to the teens because I never use them, half a packet of charcoal blocks, two different kinds of incense, coins from three different denominations, one and a half pairs of earrings, a dowsing pendulum, several miscellaneous playing cards, six lipsticks, a tube of hand cream, a tube of ibuprofen, a chopstick, A little drumstick/beater for a rain drum, painkillers, antihistamines, 3 little bottles of perfume oil , a bag of runes and an allen key. I also had enough random receipts and tissues to build a fire that would keep me warm for a good 10 minutes.
My beautiful skull purse had a hole in the coin compartment, so I sat and sewed that before I repacked my shiny clean handbag and went to bed, far too excited and pleased with myself to sleep for ages.
Moon slept as close to me as she possibly could for the few hours that I actually managed to nod off, which didn't help as she pinned me under the covers and I like to starfish, so I kept waking up needing to move positions.
I have had about 4 and 1/2 hours sleep and I'm absolutely knackered, but today, after I have once again blown up my slow puncture tyre and dropped the girls off, I get to pick up my new glasses ( I have been half blind for over 2 months in the vain hope that mine would actually turn up somewhere) and put them in my clean and organised handbag, and it is almost the weekend.
Progress with anything can be slow and painful. But I am learning that when you see it as an quest- when you see it as an opportunity to assess what is around you and choose your energies well, it is a rather magnificent adventure.
Have a wonderful Friday my friends, I hope the weekend brings you joy and relaxation relaxation 🖤
