06/07/2025
Last night, I had one of those interesting, vivid dreams — the kind that leaves you feeling emotional and thoughtful when you wake up.
In the dream, I felt left out, trying to fit in at a party. There were faces from my childhood & schools, reminders of moving often and always having to find my place in new groups. Growing up with my dad in the RAF, we moved every three-ish years, which meant making new friends and starting over again and again.
Looking back now, I can see how these experiences made me strong and sociable, but it wasn’t always sunshine and light.
There were also old bosses and colleagues from jobs over the past decade. It felt like my mind was weaving together old stories of trying to fit in — whether in the classroom, at a new school, or in different workplaces.
The possible trigger? Maybe recent social media posts about school friends’ promotions and reunions, or seeing former colleagues celebrating milestones. All subtle reminders that can bring up those old feelings of “not quite belonging.”
In the dream, there was a celebration party where I didn’t quite belong, and I somehow ended up in a ‘detention’ scenario. As a child, the idea of detention terrified me. I was always so afraid of disappointing my parents and not being “good.”
Imagine unpacking all of that on a Sunday morning!
So when I woke up, I wrote it all down. (If you’ve worked with me, you’ll know I always encourage writing your dreams down as soon as you can!)
What I’ve worked through — and continue to work through — is that even in adult life, I may not always fit in everywhere. And that’s okay.
Dreams are our subconscious mind’s way of processing. They mix old emotions, experiences, and fears we thought we had moved past, but they come back to help us heal and grow.
💭 A gentle invitation:
Do you remember your dreams? Have they ever helped you uncover old patterns or feelings you didn’t expect?
I’d love to hear if you feel called to share. And if you'd like support exploring what your subconscious might be telling you, my door is always open.
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