02/09/2025
I never set out to sabotage myself.
I always wanted that thing, what ever it was at the time.
But looking back, I can see it.
The pattern.
I'd get close.... Then pull back.
Something else would come up that appeared more important.
I'd make valid excuses, get busy, tell myself it wasn't for me, or not the right time.
The pattern took centre stage when I started my coaching.
The sabotage, the excuses, the busyness.
Along with the planning, the tweaking, the hiding.
More excuses.
More busyness.
Ghosting my goals because I was too damned scared to go for it.
The thought of change felt scary..
The thought of success felt scary.
Putting myself out there, again it felt too scary.
Talking about myself, my offers, how I can help, Selling, 😱😱
Everything, just too scary.
What if I didn't know how to deal with it?
What if I lost myself?
What if I was judged?
What if I failed?
On & on & I didn't see it for years.
When I finally did, everything made so much sense.
It's not about having more discipline, it's about protection.
When I started working with that part of me rather than against her, that's when things began to change.
That's why nervous system safety is so important for everyone.
That's why my work helping other new or inconsistent coaches is so important to me.
Because your goals are important to you.
