21/02/2025
When you are completely on your last legs and you are thinking that, I just cant do this anymore, I'm done with Life, I can't hack it no more, I am going to end it.
Have you thought about the people you are going to leave behind? don't put the guilt on them, they don't deserve that and they probably do not even know how you are even feeling.
Mental Health has an evil way of hiding itself, trust me, but things can change, Believe me they can.
Personally, and I am not afraid at all to say this., I was in this position once.
I remember sitting on the floor, no sun, no light, just despair, utter dread, my life as I knew it was over, intrusive thoughts going through my head, I had totally no control at all, and me, hoping the day will end as quick as it had started and I looked at the clock, and it was only, 8am.
I had a choice, give up, or fight, gladly I decided to fight.
I can't lie it was not easy in fact it was hell, but I was determined to overcome my OCD and Intrusive thoughts that led me in to a path of total destruction.
After visiting the doctors and having treatment with them including prescription drugs, I was asked to attend a group called AS ONE, and I can tell you now they were a god send, CBT training, countless sessions with psychiatrist, and psychologists, it was endless, but I was on a path now and had hope, and hope gave me Courage, and Courage gave me more belief and strength, and day by day I learned, I learned that the brain needs to be trained, the brain is very dangerous and it makes you the person you are, so train it with knowledge and positive thinking.
I started now to read books and one of the books I read was called THE IMPH OF THE MIND, a wonderfully written book that one of the most helpful of books that I have ever read, and I still think of the book as MY FRIEND EVERDAY.
I also started going to groups and talking about Mental Health, and also started playing games and I started to realise that Life is Life, and I could feel myself getting more confident, and I was now on my road to recovery, but I know that things can change in the future but staying positive, talking to people, and not being afraid to speak about my past is a big help to me and I hope to help others.
I am still learning, and I still have my days when I feel down, but then I think of the things that I have learned, and have always remembered through my lowest of days, on my path to living a life without fear, and destruction.
Every morning that you wake up is another day, and look at them 3 little birds on your door step, and think EVERY LITTLE THING, IS GOING TO BE ALRIGHT.
Believe!!!!!
Believe in your life, yours is worth fighting for, all that anger, the guilt, the depression, the worries, the concern, there is ALWAYS HOPE TRUST ME!!.
You now have a new destiny in your life, GRAB IT, CHERISH IT, REBUILD IT, OWN IT, CONTROL IT and one day you will look back and tell yourself,
LIFE IS GOOD , LIFE IS LIFE.
THREE LITTLE BIRDS, BOB MARLEY RIP
