11/01/2026
Hello!
I had the baby! A whole year ago 🤣
So, here’s the long overdue update that I have been mulling over for a long time.
I want to start with an apology, as I have several messages and enquires that I haven’t opened or replied to. This is the first time I’ve logged onto this account with intent for a very long time.
I gave birth in January 2025, with the plan of returning to work in the April. (Which clearly didn’t happen) to say I’ve hidden from the world this last year is an understatement.
I’ve gone back-and-forth over how much to share on this, but im aware that 90% of the people that follow this page are Mum’s of young children, I’m posting this in the hope it will resonate with some.
Within days of giving birth, I fell into postnatal depression, which I’ve struggled to navigate ever since. This isn’t something i experienced with my first born, so it came as a surprise to us.
As my son started nursery last week, I find myself looking back over the last year with the typical Mum guilt and with a feeling of being lost, unsure of the next steps and the path ahead.
Realising that I have never taken him to a park, he’s never been on a swing, never been to a baby group or experienced soft play. Aside from his cousin, he hasn’t seen another baby or met a child his own age. We’ve never played with paint or done a messy activity - which is the polar opposite to the first year of my daughters life.
Now he is turning 1 and in nursery, the natural thing to do is for me to go back to work - Which I would love to be able to do, however I couldn’t host a baby group when I don’t have the confidence to attend one myself.
I used to love my job, I enjoyed meeting Mum’s and watching their babies develop. But, until I can process the last year & learn to enjoy my own baby, I can’t begin sessions again as it wouldn’t be genuine, and I’m sure that would show.
In the meantime, my plan is going to be to find a small part-time employed job, to build my confidence back up in the world.
Then, when I feel like Teigan again, I would love to start my classes back up.
Women don’t have it easy, we set aside our career to have our children which should be recognised a lot more than it is.
For me, I created this business from scratch, building it up and making it successful. I used to be so proud of who I was.
I don’t think I will ever be that woman again, at least not 100% of her, and I certainly won’t run my classes the way I used to.
I understand now, that not every mum wants to go to a baby group to make friends, or to show off their child’s newest outfit, or to fill in a spare couple of hours.
Some mums, are just gasping for air. That might sound dramatic, but until you’ve been through it, I don’t think you can understand the strangulation of postnatal depression.
So basically, what I want to say is - bear with me.
The plan is certainly to see you all again, hopefully very soon, but at this time, there isn’t a timeframe or a plan.
Mums - we’ll find us again 💕
