30/04/2026
While I was filling my hot water bottle for some heat treatment, I was reflecting at just how far I've come...
5.5 years ago I was filling these bottles under very different circumstances. I had finally managed to end an over 5 year toxic, drug fuelled, domestic abuse relationship.
I had been clean for 6 months and finally had the clarity, courage and confidence to make a change, even in challenging conditions.
The electricity had been cut off at the mains, in Winter, I had no heating, no lights, no hot water, no fridge or freezer, nowhere to charge my phone. Alarms on my windows for fear of repercussions from the actions I had finally taken for my safety and wellbeing.
Back then, I was filling these bottles for necessity, to keep warm, as I slept on a mattress layered on blankets over draughty floorboards in the living room to conserve heat. I had to boil the water in pans on a gas cooker and the task of filling water bottles for some warmth, was an event, a laborious task in itself.
Such a stark contrast to switching the kettle on in my safe, happy home - and filling with ease for additional comfort 🥰
It took a lot for me to get to the stage where I was at 5.5 years ago. And so much more to get me to where I am now. It's taken continuous steps forward, sometimes a few backwards too... it's been a dance of healing, self love, awareness, commitment and growth ✨️
Growth and transformation happens when you commit to a new way, and aim for long term change... And that's what I continue to do, even now 💗💫💗
