01/01/2026
I stopped sharing so much of my life on socials in 2025 because tbh it requires vulnerability & strength to share your true self online but my life felt vulnerable & requiring of my strength enough & after a decade of sharing at least chunks of my life it didn’t feel super freeing & instead it felt a bit anxiety inducing
Basically I was controlling what I could in a year that shook me into accepting I have very little control over anything & life is uncertain & messy & no matter how much you try to control it (or control your body & food to feel safer) it doesn’t change the reality
That’s the thing about someone young dying outside of the ‘natural’ order of things. It makes you realise that anything can be thrown into chaos at any time & nothing is given
Hands up who loves uncertainty🖕🏾
I swear once you find acceptance of uncertainty life is forever easier & I’m no saint but I flit between acceptance & chaos & that I think is life
2025 you’ve been the best & the worst & look at us still standing & accepting of the decades worth of aging in 12 months
#2025