29/09/2018
What it means to be a woman, on this path to the Absolute where there is no he or she, you or me, just One. I find myself often caught between thoughts of "who I am", my story, my traumas, trials, baptisms by fire, my moments of clarity, clear sight, of letting go. And then wanting to rise above all the stories, all the narratives, all the "I-ness", knowing this is the path to liberation.
But, but. I am a woman. I incarnated in this lifetime in the body of a woman. I have a womb. I have cycling oestrogen and progesterone that changes every day. And my natural state changes every day as they do. I am on some days, like clockwork, buoyant and light. And in other days, like clockwork, in shadow and grief.
I am a woman. As Ram Dass says, your freedom lies through your humanity, not in spite of it; and my freedom lies through my being a woman, not in spite of it. Praise the Lady that the right teachers appear on my path right when I need them.
As I continue to learn the teachings of wise men that came before me, I simultaneously learn the teachings of wise woman. Magdalene Mystery Schools, Tara Mandalas and Daikinis, Shakti Ta***ic practices. This isn't in opposite to, in spite of, or alternate to. All that's happening is those souls that incarnated as women in this lifetime, and will find freedom and liberation as women, are doing so through their divine gift of being woman.
I have much wisdom to offer, soon, on how to thrive as a woman on this path, even through the shadow of PMT, even through the moments that feel like possession when the Dark Feminine descends in our hormonal cycle and rage or fury appears. That, too, is part of our divine gift, divine path back to Wholeness. Freedom lies through our embodiment, not in spite of.
