31/05/2026
Am I losing my spiritual identity?
For the last 17 years I’ve immersed myself in spiritual practice. It wasn’t just an interest or a hobby, it became my business, my life, my everything. My identity, in a way. It served so many purposes - my growth, my knowledge, my purpose, my excuse, my passion, my life saver, my sanity, my reason to even exist at all.
So why am I questioning it now? I mean. I’ve just manifested a brand new life for myself. Surely, more than ever, I should be basking in it?
I’ve now had a couple of months of absence from spiritual practice, and it’s been a great opportunity reflect…
Firstly, there’s a lot happening around us right now, politically. Typically I have to take myself to spiritual practice to bear it. I become deeply affected by the injustice and hatred that exists in the world. Particularly when I see so-called ‘spiritual’ people jumping onboard the right-wing bandwagon. But I feel, for the most part, that I’ve handled the last couple of months with grace. Which got me thinking that perhaps it’s my expectations of what spirituality ‘should’ look like, that has caused me so much friction in the past. And my absence from it seems to have taken away that bitterness, for the most part.
But also, for a long time, business and spirituality went hand in hand for me. It’s no secret that I struggled with my business. Not just financially, but physically and energetically, too. I have to admit, as much as I adore my clients and connecting with people each week, giving it up was a huge sigh of relief. I miss everyone, of course. But stopping the merry-go-round gave my body and nervous system the much needed break it so desperately craved. As a yoga teacher, and within the yoga community, there’s an assumption that yoga should be a daily practice for the maintenance for mind, body and spirit. But what we tend to forget is that yoga is so much more than just a physical practice. And knackering my body on a daily basis isn’t conducive to a healthy mind, body and spirit. Especially when you’re hyper mobile!
In a similar vein, dropping the pressure to meditate, eat healthy, be mindful, burn incense, be grateful, have a vision board, have ‘me’ time, enjoy nature, follow my dreams, or even have my daily hot bath has given me so much more time to just simply…exist. And it’s been elating, if I’m honest.
So is all this spiritual stuff just bo****ks, after all?
Here’s what I do know…
💛 These spiritual practices have been life-saving crutches, time and time again.
💛 I don’t need a daily spiritual practice to be a spiritual person.
💛 Simply ‘being’ is enough. And in fact, is probably the point of it all!
💛 It’s ok for me to miss people but not feel obligated to jump back into my work.
💛 And I know that when I do pick everything back up again, I’ll bloody love it! And probably appreciate it even more.
I can’t wait to reconnect with you all, and ‘get back on-it’. But for now, I’m bloody the enjoying simplicity of life!
