16/01/2026
My heart feels like it’s been torn in two all over again tonight as Lauren’s 25th birthday comes tomorrow. She’s a quarter of a century wow. It’s been one of the toughest days since Lauren went to heaven today with so many hurdles to jump and when tomorrow comes. I know exactly what happens 3 weeks later.
Her balloons are ordered as always from the lovely Lesley at Happy Daze Balloons Two for the bench and one for heaven we will let go from her brick at Ibrox.
DPD has lost her present. Which was a new Salix tree for her bench. So bloody angry and upset at that.!
Just wish I could sleep for weeks and wake up when it’s all over.
I apologise if I haven’t answered any pm’s just now, i honestly just don’t have any mojo in me for anything. But thought best let everyone know at once on here where I’ve been.
I know also how quiet I have been with Lauren’s law and I apologise whole heartedly. Covid kicked my butt, the road back to recovery has been long, and the cancer tests kicked my mh as I had so many mixed emotions. gained weight, lost weight, MH gets bad, gained weight……slowly I need to get both physical and mental health back at the same time. Hence no videos being made.
After Lauren’s anniversary in 3 weeks I aim to have my socks pulled up higher than Simon Cowell’s belt.
To my mum I’m sorry for everything you are going through with us but know how much we love you and wouldn’t be here without you. I hear Lauren singing “Things can only get better”. And it will. I promise we will get there as a family through all the difficult weeks ahead for the 3 of us.
Just as Lauren would want.
And to my angel Lauren just know how much you are still loved and missed beyond words. And thank you for the signs even though you scared us at times, we know it’s you…..always watching over us all.
Goodnight everyone. Stay safe, happy and healthy and most of all remember your inhaler as well as Lauren on her birthday tomorrow please 💙
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