05/10/2024
Total self Acceptance and Unconditional Self Love is the secret, was a realisation I had in 2021. Whilst doing a sound healing session for a client.
It's taken me 3 years to understand, integrate and fully embody this profound truth into my life. And is a message I share through my work.
Up until 2014 I was known as Cherie Hunter, many of you knew her. She was a lost and broken soul who on the surface looked like her life was perfect but the invisible battles she fought on the inside tormented her everyday until one day she admitted she needed help.
Embarking on a healing journey in 2010 was the best decision I ever made.
Then I became Cherie Hope, a disassociation from my sh*tty past and family. A few people met her, she spent most of that time in a cocoon, in no man's land, no longer who she had been with no idea who she was to become
In 2019 Cherie Amethyst-Hope came out of hiding and started reintegrating with the world. And what an incredible 5 years of transformation it has been.
Reflection and Realisation.
Cherie Hunter was the most formidable, strong, successful, confident, short tempered, cold, hard as nails, never to be crossed unless you wanted to face her wrath which was not pretty tough cookie you'd ever wish to meet. An Extravert, loud, party animal. She had no fuse, she'd go from placid to nuclear in a nanosecond.she was known as the Ice maiden and the bitch. Which makes me giggle now, coz that's so far removed from who I really am. She had the biggest heart but it had been so badly hurt and brutally broken and it became inpenetrable. The person I had become as a result of.
Cherie Hope was everything Cherie Hunter wasn't and everything that once was, was nowhere to be found. She stopped fighting. She put up with a decade of abuse from a man Cherie Hunter would have knocked out 🙈🤣It wasnt funny but you've gotta laugh sometimes.
It's taken me a long time, 14 years of non stop healing and deep inner work to realise I am the sum of all my parts and I need them all. None of them were bad. There was just too many unhealed wounds to use them effectively.
Everything I hated about Cherie Hunter is the reason I survived everything I had been through as a child (a story for another time). She is my protector, my strength, my courage and Empowerment, not a bad, evil monster to be hated. She was full of rage and unimaginable pain which made her become the way she was as a result of some horrendous things and she needed help, understanding, compassion and lots of healing. .. She did not deserve to be buried in my shadow aspect. She was a badass and in the words of Lynne a warrior and I'm so bloody in awe of her now I have accepted her. Something I was only able to do because 4 ladies who didn't know me as Cherie Hunter were able to accept, hold space and show compassion, kindness and love to that version of me recently when I was struggling to do so on my own
You know who you are and to you I am eternally grateful. I thought the newer people in my life would judge me if they knew my past. They didn't. It was me who judged me. I realised I did not totally accept myself or unconditionally love myself.
Integrating rather than denying my shadow aspects means I can be unapologetically and authentically me because Cherie Hunter has my back 💪💪💪
I had to unbecome who I had become as a result of. Realising the only way out is through and you've gotta feel to heal.
Those heart walls, armour and deflector shield needed to come down.
And now in the words of Robbie Williams I can truly say for the first time ever:
"I love my life
I am Powerful, I am Beautiful, I am free.
I am wonderful, I am magical, I am me!
I love my life
And finally, I'm where I wanna be"!
I saw this picture and thought It was a sign to share the above as it may just help someone else to accept both aspects of themselves, so they can be whole, complete and their true authentic self.
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