05/11/2025
Someone said to me once, “you seem to think your feelings”.
Believe it or not I used to think that was a compliment. I thought being good at controlling your emotions and protecting your heart was an excellent skill.
And actually…it was… I was a pro at rationalising my emotions, shoving them down, escaping them whenever it suited me.
And the wild thing is, at some point I didn’t even know I was doing it.
So much of that was just not having the language to describe what was happening inside, and not having any kind of blueprint for what to do with those really challenging feelings, in order to be with them in my body.
What I’ve learned through this work is that interoceptive awareness which is this ability to sense and feel our inner world isn’t something that happens overnight. It’s slow. It’s layered. It actually takes a lot of time, support, and safety to integrate.
And that’s only one piece of the puzzle, but it’s one of the first and most foundational pieces.
So if you’re not where you want to be yet, that’s okay.
You’re not behind. You’re just in process.