26/01/2018
Love this ❤️
I was talking with a lovely friend and student about her practice recently. She somewhat sheepishly told me that these days, her practice is mostly Child’s Pose and Savasana. And then she went through a list of reasons why it should be different — because she used to do more, because it would be “good” to do those poses from back in the day, because, because, because.
Then she paused. And said out loud what I was already thinking: “Maybe this is just my practice right now.”
I smiled and nodded because here’s what I heard underneath her laundry list: “Even though there’s not an actual reason why my practice should be different, and my practice is serving me exactly where I am right now, my mind wants it to be different, so I should make it different.”
After her ah-ha moment, I added: "Sometimes the practice we think we need in our mind isn't what our body actually wants."
Because here's the thing: it’s easy to think we should be doing things differently than we are, especially when those things are related to our bodies. After all, there's only, oh, a bazillion messages in myriad forms telling us that. And I think that's particularly true when our bodies aren't the same as they used to be. (Though truth alert: no one's body is the same as it used to be.)
For example, in the "good old days" of my early practice, I could take a nap in Supta Virasana, it was so comfortable for me. Nowadays, I’m pretty sure my knee would pop off if I got much closer than lying back on a few bolsters.
But also in the good old days? I was quick to spout my mouth off, passive aggressive in my relationships and forced myself to count to 30 before I hopped out of Savasana, car keys already in hand. Change is never only good or bad.
Over the years, my practice has become quieter, more internal. But that's not the point. It's possible your experience is the opposite, somewhere in between, or something else entirely. The point is that when we can allow our practice to be what it wants and needs to be today, then we open ourselves to the possibility that it will continue to shift and grow.
And that we will be better equipped than ever to do the same.