13/08/2025
Like a new coat I have worn every day, motherhood is feeling more comfortable.
I have not wanted to share mostly because I couldn’t in the current world landscape. How dare I when so many mothers are suffering? Children dying? Babies starving.. it’s too horrific for words.
But then I remembered we mustn’t give in to evil. There must be positive voices and stories and photos. The dark must be equaled by the light.
So I’m here to say this mother is happy and minus the world’s worry, full of joy. Any challenges are tiny compared to others across the globe. Gratitude is my anchor.
Whilst I was pregnant I remember saying to someone “I won’t be one of those women who make motherhood their whole personality”. I laugh now at my naivety - how can it not be when every one of cells have changed? I feel like my life has begun again. I am not the girl I was before but I possess her parts and memories.
I am still late to things but this time I have a valid excuse (usually a poo explosion as we walk out the door). I have even more motivation to dance, I take everything less seriously, but I am also more responsible.
Motherhood is starting a million things and not finishing any of them. It’s getting your whole to do list done in the hour he sleeps and feeling like superwoman. Motherhood is feeling guilty for not putting him down enough, or letting him sleep on me too much, or that I didn’t put him on his tummy enough or show him enough black and white pictures. It’s noticing every new freckle, sound or movement and being sad that they’re older than yesterday. It’s missing them when they’re sleeping but also feeling relieved when they fall asleep. It’s an all encompassing love that gets greater by the day and I feel incredibly privileged to experience it.
Obviously there are challenges, but I think we hear enough about those. I want to be honest about the positive things and not feel like I have to talk about the negative things to be heard. Motherhood is amazing and it’s full of contradictions, but it’s worth it. Those of you who are trying to be mothers, I see you, I was you. It’s worth the struggle. 🫂🩷
