11/06/2025
Today anger was triggered, at one time I would have pushed this down to keep the peace and continue to be the nice obedient little girl in the hope I would receive approval, love, attention. Not today!
No today I honour this intense feeling, this part of myself that has been supressed for far too long and has been triggered by the relentless need by others to keep up appearances, for things to be fu***ng NICE!!!!!!!! Perfect, and immaculate Urrrggghhhh!!!!!!!! 😡
The child in me that wasn't allowed to be messy, noisy, playful, spontaneous in her expressions wants to be seen and heard today through this anger.
Have to admit I did start to project it slightly onto a family member so I removed myself from the room before it became a full blown rant and chose to honour it through a technique called The Compassion Key founded by Edward Mannix https://edwardmannix.com/ and through scribble drawing.
Here is a poem about Scribble I wrote a few years back on the benefits of it.
Scribble
When you are feeling stagnated or frustrated,
there’s nothing like a good scribble on a page.
When all is going awry and you want to cry,
just scribble to prevent lashing out in rage.
Scribbling is like a wild untamed energy
that’s broken free from the confines of the mind.
So, scribble like you mean it - don’t hold back,
for it will help you to relax and unwind.
J.R.Keall 21/7/20
Anger needs to be honoured and expressed just as any other emotion as long as it is channelled in a way that is not going to cause upset with others. Use any anger you feel as fuel to bring about change and transformation, rather than using it to feel victimized by a situation that has triggered you in this way. Be grateful anger is coming to the surface to be seen and wishing to be expressed as this is your opportunity to heal the past, to clear the decks, to allow more light, truth and love to enter into your life.
I'm grateful this anger was triggered as its enabled me to acknowledge the wounded child within that was unable to express this all those years ago.