15/05/2026
Survival can lead to generating habits that keep you going..until they don't. Possibly toxic ones..depending on your perception.
I caught myself in this loop and hadn't really had time to think about it. Until my partner pointed it out.
What I had done is try to patch my symptoms up with meds, hrt, supplements, food management- starch free diet, reflexology, massage, hypnotherapy, insoles, the newest something that I had researched. I have sunk so much money in order to keep functioning...often money I just didn't have; but it's for my health right?
Often as a reflex to my condition, often to keep striving...pretending everything was ok..I can do this.
Yes..I did do it...for what though?
My body has produced more symptoms...
But all I really needed to do is:
1. Recognise my patterns
2. Listen...actually listen to my body
3. Use the variey of tools
Am I going to be cured..nope, but I sure as hell going to manage my symptoms so much better, in my own time.
I have also picked up some extremely powerful tools and knowledge along the way.