
27/10/2024
In February, I woke up at 5am with the most intense pain I've had since labour. The pain stretched from my lower ribs all the way to my perineum. Until 10am I could barely stand straight or hold a conversation, so that afternoon I had a GP appointment where they referred me for a pelvic ultrasound.
That same week, I went to A+E because I was getting a warm shooting sensation down the inside of my left leg every 30 seconds or so... This continued for about five days, and it was combined with bruising on the inside of my thigh.
In the mornings, I woke up with lower belly bloating and by the afternoon it has spread to my upper abdomen.
My hormones have also been out-of-whack too. Longer, irregular menstrual cycles, spotting before my bleed, struggles to focus, exhaustion, iron-deficiency and so on. Just not right.
Fast-forward to the pelvic ultrasound (SIX MONTHS after it was ordered) and my GP called two days later, "There is a 5cm structure on your right o***y. You have been referred to Gynaecological Oncology on the 2-week cancer pathway."
Wtf. Wt ACTUAL F?!
Two weeks became six weeks of letters, scans, blood tests, poorly-communicated information, unanswered phone calls and voicemails.
All the while, I'm PLOUGHING my body with supplement protocols, re-committing to womb work, working out, lymphatic drain massage, tapping, dating, meditating, affirming, BREATHING.
The breathing, in between the crying. The catastrophizing. The calling my life insurance provider. The envisaging my son watching me die. The ruminating about what I should write in my goodbye letters.
Y'all, I'm a feminine empowerment coach, a holistic wellness guide, and a mindfulness instructor, yes. And also? Also, I'm the single mama of a 5-year-old. I am not ready to die.
Well, thankfully, I'm not going to. I mean, I will one day. But I have the all-clear, with the explanation that apparently, my colon is a bit longer than it should be and it was bunched up on the ultrasound 🤷♀️
So, there is work to do digestively and hormonally, BUT. I will take it. And thank Goddess that's all it is 🙏
And thank you to my friends and family who supported me through this. I love you 😘