14/04/2026
During lockdown my husband and I created, from scratch, a rum distillery called Old Mother Hunt Rum. I absolutely loved it- the challenge, the massive shake up to my life as a stay at home mum, the variety to every single day. We had very clear roles in the business so I was solely responsible for a huge part of it. And then it ended. And I realised I had no idea who I was without a project to hide behind. For years it had been the kids- looking after two under the age of two is no mean feat and it was all consuming to learn how to be a mum and re-parent myself through a lot of it. Then it was the rum. And then it was nothing. My Dad died around then too and my mental health absolutely tanked. Having two young kids to look after while my husband was away with work forced me to go to therapy and finally deal with everything and I can honestly say it was the best thing I’ve ever done for myself. Again, I’ve realised it wasn’t a choice I made for myself- I was forced into it- I felt like I had to go as I couldn’t carry on the way I was.
Since then I’ve felt so lost, the kids are older and I’m not needed in the same way I was when they were babies. Without a purpose my life felt so flat and grey. Every day is like Groundhog Day, it felt like nothing I did could change that. This is the essence of my business now- finding ways to choose myself every day to bring back that feeling of aliveness. The idea that life can be exciting and varied and full of possibilities that I actually want to chase and pour my heart and soul into. For me. Not for anyone else. Do you know what I mean?
P.s. sorry you can hear my very excited dog in the background- he wants to go for a walk not listen to me witter on about my life